passerby · 28d
you know i really didnt cry when i read the last two chapters of ☀️🌊 and not because i didnt like them or anything!!! they were perfectly and fr written so well, i really loved them so so much that they still left me sad at the end; its just because when i read its rare for me to cry but this chapter… im telling you it really made me cry so much over and over again while i was reading it because in some way, seeing more attentively gyvs point of his reflections on life it really made me empty and sad. you know i think the same thing about death just like u and ☀️🌊’s gyv so i kinda saw also myself in it and made me realise so many things. just like you i think ive never actually wanted to exist because of the idea of death, grieving and everything related to. my life is happy so im okay with it rn but when i think about it more seriously i always think that maybe not existing would be better :) also seeing how much he loves yj it hurts so much because at the end of the day he was just a boy who was waiting his person from the war so he could confess and be together :(( anyway i wanted to share this with you haha thank you as always for writing ☀️🌊 its my fav be0mjun work ever
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Hello passerby!!
Sorry for the late reply, haha 😅 but I'm so happy you love sunsea so very much. It's an honour that you view it as one of your favourite works.
Interlude II was definitely far different than all other chapters. It's in the first person pov, for one, but also it's one of the first sunsea chapters I wrote. I've placed myself into bg's shoes and gave parts of him that I hold close to my heart - my thoughts on existing, for one, and how we are of no value to the world in the grand scheme of things, but are so precious to the ones we love. We all exist so briefly it almost seems meaningless, but in selfish ways, it isn't.
Sunsea bg has this belief that he is only treasured for his gift, and so he hides everything else away - it's easier for people to value you for one thing than to look into you and pick you apart. He believes that his existence is only made worthy because he can heal others, and so he has never allowed himself anything else. When he wrote that he wished for no one to know of his death, and that he wish he's never existed, I think that was his cry for help. He didn't fear dying; he feared existing too much. Loving too much. That's how I felt as well. Correct me if I'm too presumptuous, but I assume you may be able to relate to such an idea.
I think it's fair that we do not wish to exist. But I hope you know as well, that you are here existing and so you should live well. As happy as you can be, as loved as you can be. It's my wish for you and everyone else! It's what I want for sunsea's bg too.
Hope you'll be there for the very happy sequel! 🩷🩷
