hello love!! again, thank you so much for appreciating my fics; it never fails to gladden me in knowing that someone out there feels a connection of some sort with them. thank YOU for the love, genuinely. i wouldn't be a writer without any reader.

it's also been more than two months since i've written anything that's creative in capacity, which i am feeling extremely guilty about lol. i'll be turning 19 this year and starting uni in a couple months; my teen years are zooming by and i've been overwhelmed with the profound reality of what that means for me. mostly in terms of what i want from myself, the trepidation-cum-anticipation i'm feeling towards law school, and the career i'll be building in the years to come. in fact, i'd say if the muted agony in 'time slows in your embrace' drawing from the threads of anxiety i've been weaving since graduating from high school is palpable, then what's happening in my current stage of life is tenfold worse LOL. so. much. anxiety. but!! i'll be fine. life charts its own path and sometimes external factors seem so insurmountable but i'll be fine -- this is what it means to live. we're capable of so much if we put ourselves to it and i think that's the beauty of humanity.

digression aside, i'm curious to know which fic consoles you the most! i personally hold argonautica close to my heart because it embodies the crux of what i believe in -- the simplicity of life and love and the fact that in the grand scheme of things and the universe, we barely matter. of course, it's easy to run with that and devolve into pure nihilism but imo it ought to compel us instead to cherish our existence, which is utterly perfect in its imperfections. i think quite a fair bit about how absolutely wonderful it would be to be out there in space, left with nothing much to confront but my humanity.

so we'll be fine, anon. no matter what. you and i both. ily!

bestie it always shocks me to some degree to learn my stories have impressed upon people in some way or other. anyway, breaks from ao3 are actually so relatable…i spent the first half of 2023 reading manga/manhwa in my free time and fics scarcely had a presence in my life LOL. so take your time!!

i upload fics whenever i feel i’m done with them so i’m afraid i can’t tell you when my next one will drop. but nearing the end of the writing process you’ll def be seeing talking about it + i usually create fic posts on my twitter!! & i believe that if you’re subscribed, you’ll get an email notification whenever i upload something new! thank you for your anticipation; ily ❤️

"close enough to want to cry, but no actual tears come out" -- i get that feeling; i love it when that happens!!!! ifl because the human lifespan is so short & replete with the many regrets we have but that we can never assuage, the concept of past lives is alluring as we get multiple chances, multiple do-overs, multiple happier endings. with soulmateism we get endless, unwavering, unconditional love -- the purest kind of love as is imo. so yes the concept embedded in 25 lives is understandably appealing and touching!!!!!

"reflective, mildy melancholic, but oddly comforting" -- you put it really well!! ifl this doesn't just apply to my 25 lives fic, but to most of my fics in general. i like stories when they're blue!!!

"i feel like if the world was going to end soon, this would be one of my last reads before i go" -- thank you????!!!????? (...and umm not to self promote but i do have a fic that is quite similar in premise HAHA)

"it just seems like something beautiful and comforting to hold onto even as the light goes out completely" -- ily. like ily. really.

thank you for rereading my fic!!!! and thank you for this also! i'll be writing more soon once i'm done with all the tedium in my life ♡

omg hi!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH — i’m really happy that my fics have managed to do that for you. imo there’s nothing better than when something manages to touch your heart so knowing that i’ve been able to do that myself is simply wonderful. & welcome to the world of poetry!!!! you’ll love it here, promise. ❤️‍🔥

as for vocabulary, there are two ways to go about it: 1) use a thesaurus/synonyms/antonyms (if you wanna reverse it). but do be careful with this because synonyms have different shades of meaning eg “cry” & “howl”, “melancholic” & “nostalgic”, “laugh” & “giggle”. sometimes you can really just use the word as is, otherwise you risk your work sounding like a dictionary soup. 2) expressing/exemplifying the word i want e.g. instead of saying X is “beautiful”, you can elaborate on its features, how it makes Y feels etc etc. it’s a neat trick to use whenever you feel you’re leaning more into telling than showing!

overall the most important writing tip i’ve ever received is (and this is applicable to anyone no matter their style and preference): read something beautiful every day, and write something (hopefully beautiful) every day (as much as you can). practise makes better!!!!

and yes, we can be moots!!!!!!!!!!! ❤️🔥🫶🦋✨ just hmu in my dms!!

OF COURSE BABES

• you with pearls for eyes by adultery
• chasing the sun by 9ofcups
• when your whole crew doesn’t know a damn thing by feelsofine
• all the melodramas in the world seem like my story (series) by feelsofine
• keep in mind, 알잖아 너의 곁에 by jellypop
• bleeding me dry like a damn vampire by criminalundercover
• love on-air by conception

and honestly so many more that i cannot think of rn bcs my brain is mush 🥔💥. but really, if you want something that strikes your fancy just let the tagging system take you to your destination HAHA. and if you want soul crushing angst ummmm…most zb1 fics are quite fluffy so you might have to read fandom blind for some tags.

i have!!! so!! many!!!! but first: i consider angst a spectrum, so we have stuff that makes your heart twinge just the slightest and then on the other end stuff that makes you full-on bawl. i’m speaking in generalisations bcs sometimes fics incorporate any number of magnitudes of angst, as do i in my own (hopefully…at least).

the fic i’m working on rn (and which should be out soon!!??!!!) would fall somewhere in the comfortable middle. it’s not outright heartbreaking but hopefully you’ll feel a couple tugs here and there. i’m aiming for less sadness in the conventional sense and more so of melancholy/wistfulness/bittersweet with less emphasis on the bitter.

another fic i’ve been working on should be full-blown angst. like i want it to be the kind that makes me tear up even as i’m writing it. but it’s currently on pause bcs there’s so much i want to pack into it that i feel attempting to rush it is doing it a disservice. i will def get around to it soon bcs i love it so much and i CANNOT wait for it to be out.

as for ideas still in formation/lingering in my brain, we have: amnesia and attempted time travel fix-its. sometimes ifl my ideas sorta overlap (…which i dislike bcs i would rather not write the same thing in different fonts) so we shall see if anything comes out of them.

anw: thank you for the question!! it’d be great to know too if there’s any kind of angst you prefer!!!! i love writing angst sm (as one can tell…fluff is not my thing. i need Feels. i need Sadness.)