iilen

anon <3 · 1mo

Iiiiiillen. You are literally? Like your ass moved and got sick and is starting a new job. And now you are upsetti about not keeping up with social media and writing??? That's hardly a sane demand to have in times like these. Nonetheless, happy to see you💖

lol i mean. i get what you're saying, and it's true, but also depression and feeling disconnected and on the outside of the community, especially because my account reaches about 300 people on average, still do be rough. and i miss my creative hobby the most while i'm going through a bunch of stressful life stuff. but again, i get what you mean <3

iilen · 1mo

hayhey · 3mo

hi iilen <3 love u and wish u rest and recovery whenever u can !!! i love ur writing and ur ideas so keep it up!

💛💛 thank you, ri. doing my best to let it be okay that it’s slow. and thank you 🥺 in love with your art and fics, too

iilen · 3mo

sass 🍊🍑 · 3mo

hi iilen. it sounds like you might have been getting some difficult rs questions so I wanted to come and say, I hope you're doing ok despite it all 🤍
you have me thinking about mnh playing with his own chest too. that masturbation drabble you recently posted 🥴 it got me thinking about this post and how mnh loves to grab them tiddies https://x.com/jjkkthjjp/status/1828528676759363757?t=O9kWf7BEp1UjxltIggSAfA&s=19

thank you, sass 🥺

honestly the shitty anons are just tiring. I’m already very depressed, so they just kind slowly drop in—the worst are the ones shitting on my writing. but it’s fine. we delete and move on.

and UGH !!! I just know this man plays with his own tits. I just know he begs to be tiddy fucked.

iilen · 3mo

anon <3 · 3mo

I just want you to know I adore you and your writing so much! one day I hope to create masterpieces like you and I will work hard to hopefully have the same affect on people with my writing. also everytime we interact I still fangirl a little inside because I love your brain kisses your forehead and runs away

;^; oh anon. i'm not sure who this is, but i hope you know that you're already writing masterpieces, i guarantee it. i'm sure i enjoy every time we chat on the tl too :3 thank you, though, for liking my silly goofy little stories. that means a lot <33

iilen · 3mo

anon <3 · 3mo

This is extremely random, I'm coming to you cause I know you fuck with music in general and you're one of the loveliest people to spitball with, but I'm not even sure if you like T4me Imp4la, I was just in my mnsvng feels while shuffling and they came up and for the first time I thought, wouldn't it be so cool to hear Meemo do a cover of one of their songs? There is a lot of lyrics potential for aus too BUT I mean, am I goin mad or would they fit his vocals so much? Like, his style could put more flavour to some of their songs too, idk, I would love to hear your thoughts on that! Hope you're resting well btw <3

oooh. his voice would fit so nicely with their music! plus like he would probably free style a little as he sang. his vocal range would go so well. i think i mostly know their bigger songs, but like even just borderline or the less i know the better would sound so good in his voice!

iilen · 3mo

anon <3 · 3mo

hiya! i just wanted to say your writing has altered my brain chemistry (/pos) and i think about the squid plushie fic every day 💕 hope you're doing well!

squid plushie fic, loml. thank you, anon <333 happy to have messed with your brain chemistry for the better.

iilen · 3mo

anon <3 · 3mo

Hey love, your writing is so dear to me. It gets me in such an unrestrained way. Being a disappointment, the shame, the need, the shame of the need and being caught in the arms of someone who cares, who's yours, your reprieve... You handle these themes so unflinchingly and you give so much comfort with that.

It's... it's stupid to expect you to not feel these things when you are able to present them to us so cuttingly clear. So I'm just here to bring you some external validation. Your writing truly is precious 💛

thank you, anon. yeah. like. there's a lot of shame and trauma that i work through via my fics. having characters who get to be wrapped up and so loved. it brings me comfort to write them. thank you for seeing that.

iilen · 3mo

anon <3 · 3mo

Remember when I asked if you wrote The Cat's Delivery Boy chronologically? That's bc I could kinda tell. It started out as just the story and then gradually... it became yours. Your writing style your trademark- idk how to describe it. Just know that at some point I thought to myself: "Ah. There they are!" when you warmed up to show your hand and your colours in that story.

I think that's a testament to how good you are, no? Honestly was a miffed that you called it 'nonsense' on behalf of your work and me who likes this work. Are you accusing me of having no taste, huh?????? I - haver of exclusively great taste - like!!!1! The audacity. Jkjk, but mentally I'm giving you a mild side eye and a shoulder-check in good fun.

On another note, I hope the injuries heal well and I hope the bad feelings pass!

<33 haha thank you. i do often hope there is a lot of "me" when i write that kind of...shows. i write very much as things come to me in my head--which is why a lot of inner dialogue style of things happen in my stories as i write.

this really warms my heart to read, thank you, especially while the demons are so very very loud. thank you, anon. <3

iilen · 3mo

🩷 May 💚 · 3mo

Iilen babe, everything ok? How you doing? Recovering well? 🥺💚

the demons got very loud. i'm not better in the slightest, but i still have some stuff i need to do for people here, so i'm back a little. thank you for checking on me, though. <3

iilen · 3mo

🩷 May 💚 · 3mo

DON'T LISTEN TO A HOLES THAT SAY YOU'RE NOT EVEN A WRITER! YOUR AMAZING AND INCREDIBLE AND COOL AND CUTE AND TALENTED AND FROM EDEN IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE FICS OF ALL TIME AND THE WRITING STYLE IS SO FUCKING GOOD, ITS SUCH AN AMAZING COMPLEXITY, YOUR BRAIN IS BRILLIANT, WHEN YOU'RE JUST PLOTTING STUFF AROUND ITS THE BEST FEELING EVER, I NO JOKES LOVE IT SO MUCH IT MAKES ME WANT TO BE FRIENDS TO JUST DISCUSS IT AROUND. THERE'S NOTHING WRONG ON HAVING BAD MOMENTS AND WANTING TO JUST BE QUIET, HERE'S A SPACE FOR US TO DISTRACT, RELAX, HAVE FUN AND BE HAPPY, FUCK YOUR HATERS ALL, I LOVE YOU TEN THOUSAND MILLIONS MORE FOR EACH HATER YOU HAVE! THEY CAN FIGHT ME! I LOVE YOU! really angry loving con hug I wanna hide you from this stupid asses and bite off their hands for making you uncomfy humph

may you're so lovely, thank you. scooping you up to keep you safe. i really really appreicate all of this, so much. like, my brain is very fried and on fire lately, and deeeeep in the gutter (and not in a sexy way lmao), so this really means a lot to read, friend, thank you. glad to have you here to yell with when i am able to be present! <3333 (i have lots of plotting to hopefully soon get back to talking about )

iilen · 3mo

anon <3 · 3mo

do you even write anymore? you keep talking about wips but never post anything

i do, but it’s been a huge struggle this as it’s been a very rough one; trying to get 2 small wips out soon. thanks for being so cool and chill and nice in my anons 👌

iilen · 3mo

anon <3 · 4mo

Not to go and try to one up you but istg they always do this shit when we're busy. Once I was helping out on a congress for the whole day and I come home to the fandom on fire and jsvng kissing mnhs neck. I swear they feel it out.

oof that’s so rude!! they really wait for us to be unavailable to be super gay on main lol

iilen · 3mo

anon <3 · 4mo

haiii! so i wanted to know what you think about this clip of mnh0. i’m a veeery hardcore mnsvnger but this really made me questions things… like why would he say that it’s between a man and a woman 😐 https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGevsReKd/ TAKE CARE!!!

I really wouldn’t let this make you feel one way or another, anon /gen. it’s a pretty small thing imo. he’s less likely to insinuate gay sex on a fan call. idk the phrase but it feels very bird and bees yk? I’ve also heard kr isn’t a super gendered in language, but I couldn’t tell you if that applies here. also, maybe we love a bi king!
anyways, take care & try to not let things like this make shipping less fun for you 💛💛

iilen · 3mo

Crowstel · 4mo

Seeing you an the tl always brings me joy. Truly sickening. But I guess best to tell you while I still can on here (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)⁠❤

T^T you're so sweet, please. thank you for being here with me <33

iilen · 4mo

anon <3 · 4mo

Iilenieeee, how's the area? Hope you got some cool peeps there to take care of you. Did everything and everyone arrive in one piece? I hear cracked mirrors are no good luck but you they do like it if you heal the split so the other light can't get in. They say to paint a shard the same shade of green! It always reminds me of the Italian furniture my grandparents had, lacquer peeling. Be well 💜 I hope my love walks with you for a distance

so far, I’m really loving my new space and city! I can walk places again instead of hoping my bus shows up so I can get groceries. my new place has lots of great sun shining in. and I do! I have some really lovely friends here that I’m excited to be so close to again.

most things arrived intact! a few minor damages but I mean much of my furniture was thrifted or from friends getting new things, so it happens. thankfully all mirrors are intact!

I had no idea about painting the shards; good to keep in mind.

thank you for the love; I return mine to you. 💛