BEFORE I CONTINUE, I'm so sorry if anything I mention might make you uncomfortable. THE HEADCANONS MY BRAIN MADE ABOUT YOU TOO like I promise I know how illogical it sounds lmao 😭 I swear I'm sorry if this came off as creepy MY DREAMS ARE SO RANDOM AHH I HATE IT!

Okay then Ili, brace yourself. I wasn't lying when I said this was long. Get some popcorn.
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From the start of the dream I was dreaming in a dream. Basically dream-ception. Weird I know. But I was dreaming in a dream about you (of all people yes).

Now obviously, I don't really remember this that well, but I know that it had to do with:
— you
— someone's name that starts with M (it's so annoying that I can't remember how it goes. I feel like its a female name i tried to like remember by making up variations CLOSELY to what I remember. It went something like Modya? Morya? Madya? Mordya? Moya? IDK GOD HELP ME)
— loss/grief

Are you still with me? (warning: bad explaining incoming)
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So I woke up from THAT dream and I was like whatahell I guess I'll talk to Ili about this 🙏 I was like this a sign fr fr.

Now idk if we were friends in my dream, I think we kinda like JUST met. 'Cause me and you were going to an educational institution 😭 (i'm pretty sure it was like college or smth since I don't think either of us are in high school anymore) However! We didn't go to the same college. I went to a different one, you went to another one but they were pretty close by tbh. Like you could literally walk on foot from one to the other.

So how did we meet and became acquaintances? Idk. Janitor. ai probably LMFAOO

Okay moving on.
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I woke up that day after dreaming about you, and then went outside to meet up with you. I'm pretty sure I was trying to find an opportunity to tell you "Hey, this is weird as hell, but I just dreamt about you and it had to do with some random name and something with loss. Does it ring a bell? Are you okay?"

Obviously batshit crazy.

But the point is I never even got to tell you that.

While we were together, talking and hanging out, you were sorta anxious the whole day like looking over your shoulders constantly. You were also sticking with me the whole time which I didn't mind honestly since I ain't got no friends 😭🙏 First day of college you know how it is.... sigh.

Moving on.
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We were, again, together. My college for today just finished and it was time for me to go home, while it was time for you to get to your classes. Since we were going separate ways, I bid you farewell and was going to wait for my mom to pick me up with her car.

However. That plan quickly fell apart as soon as I realised that you thought we would be walking together. I didn't quite catch your words, but you said something like: "Oh, right, your mom is picking you up. Of course." You shook your head, like you felt stupid, and then like RAN OFF.

Did I mention that it was raining like hell?

I was left standing there like 🧍‍♂️. Obviously feeling bad. So the only logical thing for me to do was ditch my mom and join you 🤩 (which is exactly what I did !!!)

I quickly caught up with you, opened my umbrella (which just teleported in my hand ig?) and walked together with you to escort you to your class.

Now this was sweet and all BUT NOW COMES THE SCARY PART.
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While we were walking, you opened up a bit and mentioned that you had like a CRAZY ASS STALKER who you're terrified of because she approaches you every time you go to college.

I was like huh?? Hold up??? But it also explained why you were acting off the entire day.

The stalker was a girl. Her name was Ramonda for some reason (i'm pulling these names from my ass literally what). Now in this dream I actually knew her. Somehow...?
She DID have a reputation of being like a scary delinquent of sorts. Basically she smoked, did drugs, got laid, got into fights. And she was batshit crazy that even her own small friend group was scared of her. She was like their leader ig. (idk if appearance matters but she had short brown hair like a bob? and uhh her nose was bleeding from fights or something im pretty sure she was also wearing a school uniform with a blue skirt)

While you were telling me that I was like oh! I heard of her, but I never had a chance to meet her (thank god), but don't worry Ili nothing's gonna happen !! Now this part was funny 'cause as we walked, I looked around searching for Ramonda while also shielding you from view WITH THAT UMBRELLA I HAD LMAO (grr back off ☂🤺🤺)

For the love of god idk why I was acting so protective. Irl I would be the one needing protection 🙏😭

MOVING ON!
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I successfully escorted you to your class with no trouble and now it was time for me to go back to the place my mom was literally supposed to be waiting for me.

H o w e v e r.

When I returned, I saw my mom's car. Aaaand... uh the car was totally wrecked 😃 Like all the windows were smashed and everything (idk where my mom was honestly)

Now this part I don't really remember well, its kind of a blur. But somehow I knew that Ramonda was the culprit of course. I feel like she was watching us... I ALSO think she approached me here, in front of the totaled car, and said something. Don't remember a damn what she said, but I think she was like jealous that I was hanging out with you??? Just the vibe i was getting. She was psycho as hell I tell you 😭 Like damn now she coming after me because I talked to you??

And from this point on even more things are a blur in the dream. I honestly have no clue what happened next. I think you (and me now) weren't like her first victim or smth 💀

Thats... that's all !!! That's the whole dream did you like it? 😍😍😍
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Literally I woke up from this long ass hell dream and had to look at my ceiling for an hour (it didn't help that it was storming outside in the morning like crazy). I was like this is a sign because why am I dreaming of a random person who makes bots on janitor ai lets all bffr K it's time to take your medication. My therapist won't believe me... /j

Anyways idk why I think the dream was sad. Ig I felt like something happened to you because why was I so fixated on the feeling of loss/grief??

Now that I do know that you broke up with someone, this make it so fck creepy. I hope the breakup wasn't harsh, I hope everything sorts itself out ❤️ If you ever feel lonely, just remember that there is someone dreaming of you IM KIDDING IM KIDDING IM SORRYY HAHAA
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NOW FOR SMALL DETAILS/FACTS THAT I DO REMEMBER!

I think we were in Hungary WHICH IDK HOW IT IS RELEVANT AT ALL. But I remember when I entered your college, there were some signs and information on the walls that I couldn't understand at all 💀 I don't think you are from Hungary so idk why Hungary? I guess it's because most of my online friends used to be from there so my brain automatically made that connection.

Now let's talk about how I dreamed of you but idk about your appearance. IDK EITHER MAN. I woke up and was like oh yeah I was dreaming about Ili??? I just knew yk. I don't remember your appearance at all, not even your voice or your outfit. The ONLY thing I remember is that you had soft facial features. Comforting almost I would describe it. That's all. Idk how else my brain would describe it. 😭

But Ili i just knew it was you fr 🤞 we connected spiritually now /lh
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That's all. Time to ponder the significance of this disastrous dream.

P.S. Ironically, the name Ramonda means wise protector... 😭
And about that name from the beginning, the M one, I guess it's not important at all? Unless...