Shilohs sisters name is rana!! She is 12-13 ish yrs old at the start of the story. Ill attach a pic. She is a talented weaver, has a gift for remembering scripture (but importantly she cannot read) and is personally being tutored by one of the capitol’s 12 ruling bishops, girly girl who is rambunctious with an attitude…and her dream is to be a good wife. Shes been taught her whole life that that is what she should be, and shes like yeah im gonna be the BEST wife there is, no matter who my husband is!!! I want three kids and a house that looks like this and i will feel so happy and fulfilled if that is my life one day!!! But then, she is suddenly sent off to marry a rich man 3 times her age. And she is still a child. She is now a wife and has no fucking clueeee what shes doing and her husband treats her like hes her babysitter and her fucking annoying ass brother is also there treating her like a kid in this new town and fuckkkk no one really…seems to like her or want her around? The house servants gossip and bully her. Rumors go around about her age. The only person who talks to her like an equal is the sintouched eunuch church servant who keeps hanging around her brother. Hes the only one she can confide in about the strange flickers of terror she is remembering….

Shes an important character and has the most solid role in the story draft rn lol. The main conflict with her (which happens around act ii of the plot) is that the lord she marries wants an heir, but swore to the bishop he wouldnt touch her (he married her as a favor to protect her from forces in the capitol’s church who would kill her for things she has witnessed) so he needs someone else to have the kid, then give it to her so to others itd look like she had it. And rana kinda erm umm accidentally reminds the lord that yahya is there, and the lord knows that yahya isnt actually a eunuch, and gets permission from the priest (yahyas adoptive father figure who also basically controls his life, and has this thing going on where he wants to see yahya suffer as much as possible in repentance for the sin he bears on his skin because he believes that if he suffers enough then when yahya dies he will become a saint) to force yahya to carry it. Yahya, understandably, does not take this well. After the birth they try to make him the kids wet nurse and he runs out into the evil monster infested scary woods and cuts his breasts off and lies there hoping to die. But the cool demon monsters dont eat him (hint) and his father finds him and nurses him back to health. And the whole time yahya is recovering (shiloh out of the picture at this point btw, he had to leave for War Reasons) rana is there…with the baby……and confiding in yahya about more of the things she is remembering, because shes always done that. It was always him who listened. And she lets it slip that she has finally remembered whyyyy she was sent away…..she was put through the religious cannibalism and is immortal…but she is actually going to be physically 11 years old forever. She is never going to have a family. Yahyas baby is, to her, her only chance at something like the future she wanted so bad. Because she has no idea how to even conceive of herself as a person outside of the dream role of being a wife/mother. She literally has not been alive long enough to figure any of that out.

So shiloh comes back to the town when he hears rana has a baby because hes like (clenching so hard hes gonna have an aneurism) WTF DO U MEAN SHE HAD A BABY….but when he shows up he sees how happy she is!!! Genuinely happy holding that baby like a doll. Her bishop tutor goes with him bc he is a friend of the lord she married, and he is personally going to baptize the baby. But lol. Yahya has snapped and he kills and eats the babys heart on the night of the baptism (this is how the immortality thing works…its like got to do with the theology of the world) literally IN RANAS BED overtop of her and then he grabs her and kidnaps her when he gets caught. Things happen, shiloh ‘kills’ him and dumps his body in a river, rana is traumatized all over again and her baby is dead, plot plot plot yahyas not actually dead he just went to hell for a little while and found the fabled sword there that god used when he tamed the wild earth for humanity, and he comes back to kill his rapist and everyone who gets in the way. But heres da thing……rana also wants to kill her rapist (the bishop). Shiloh wants to kill yahya. The bishop wants the rich lord to bring about the second coming of christ essentially lol. Plot plot plot. Whatever. The story becomes about violence and cycles and how violent revenge can be cathartic but it does not heal anything. Rana may find catharsis but she is still 11 forever stuck in the state tht she was when bad things happened to her. Yahya may find catharsis but he had to harm so many people to do so and he still cannot return to how he was before. Shiloh ends up becoming turned to the side of anti-punitive justice…which is kinda funny to me personally because hes a soldier/knight, he has a huge body count. And he was killing innocents fhdfhdfh as war is like…

Not to infodump lol. This is probably incomprehensible i left so much out hahaha. But the last thing i want to say is that it is deeply funny (i have to laugh to be sane about it) to me that THIS story with cannibalism and murder and sexual assault in its plot is infinitely more Publishable than their main modern story, because the main modern story in its current state is actually very much about the palestinian genocide and how abandoning ones morals and heritage in favor of the imperialistic death machine is in fact fucking evil and has infinite destructive ripples across generations and all aspects of life, and it is explored through a depressing kink drama. No one would ever publish that. But the other story is just game of thrones for transmascs so its ok.

THESE ARE MY STORIES……I hope to one day tell them in ways that are coherent lol. But i hope tjis makes it apparent why i dont ever rly want to explore the stories outside of the actual form the final narratives take.