that the whole journalling, cleaning, drinking water and sleeping earlier does actually worked wonders for my mental health, but my drawing time and incapability to focus, probably due to some undiax mental issue, hinder my sleeping sheadule into a wreck, so theres that, ive been trying to fix it, but i think i thats the most effort it has taken me because my brain registers it as a sacrifice in time, and the mental maths arent mathing.

that as much as an introverted i am meeting people does help me balance my general understanding and reading of surroundings and social situations.

that Yoongi was right in first love, when he voiced his old piano telling him that "we will get to meet you again in the future no matter what form, Greet me happily then" but about art. because im simply sappy like that.

embrace the weird the cringe the fucked up. allowing oneself not to seek good an beauty everywhere is incredibly good for the creation process, nowadays i kinda regret not having re-gotten into videogames an anime sooner knowing how much creative release its giving me. that for some wicked reason didnt just work as good in kpop. barriers are sometimes a source of creativity as restrains forces creative problem solving but sometimes they are just barriers .

i really really need to accept that. it really isnt that serious