this twitter has been needlessly too personal lately and full of pathetic tmi stuff anyway, haha.. so i don't mind answering. (it's a surprising ask, though)

actual sexual attraction is something, i'm afraid, i've never felt toward anyone at all. the idea that some people just look at someone and go 'wow, i'd do them' or start mentally undressing them simply blows my mind. not in the victorian 'how indecent!'-kind of way but in the genuine 'how does that work for you, guys??' kind of way. so, while i did identify as gay/pan in my teens due to simple lack of self-awareness, i'm pretty sure i've been on the ace spectrum since forever.

i'd casually drop the term 'romantic attraction' next but unlike other types of attraction, this, i feel, is a very subjective term. different people understand different things under 'romance'. for some it's butterflies in the stomach, for others - it's the rare sense of peace and quiet. the 'desire to date', often used to determine romance, is also very vague.

in my personal interpretation, 'romantic attraction' is a wish to build and support each other in going through life together, to often elicit pleasant emotions, to ignore the differences/negatives and focus on the similarities/positives (or even bridge any existing gaps with effort), to trust and sometime understand each other without words, to forgive because you can't not forgive, to share critical life views and big life goals, and try working on your shared relationship comfort through deep respectful talks. the "we're each other's #1 person"-kind of relationship that implies healthy emotional independence and inherent sense of self-worth with mutual respect and motivated work together.

now that i've (messily) defined romantic attraction, the simple truth is that i've only ever felt this toward women or feminine-aligned non-binary people.

in case of the romantic attraction being present, i'm not averse to sexual intimacy. it's not a physical need/drive of mine per se, but more of a conscious motivation to give a person comfort and pleasure (if they wish for it) or get closer to them for a more intense emotional intimacy.
whether i'd enjoy being on the receiving end of this intimacy in such a bond, is something, i guess, i'll never know. many of my romantic bonds either are (from the start) or end up being one-sided before i feel relaxed/safe enough and figure out anything that i'd even want.

the other thing i'm also unable to conclusively "figure out" is my potential for sensual attraction. i don't get touch-starved and don't require physical affection to feel and know i'm loved. but sense is important for many people and "emotional" component is only enough for the 'in-the-head' weirdos. being out of touch with your senses can get you dumped. but most of my relationships in the so-called ~formative teen years~ were one-sided, and learned to restrain my then-present touchy-feely reflexes. whether they're 'dormant' or 'not there at all' seems like the unattainable knowledge for me, hah.

thanks for the question, anon! i hope this wasn't an awkward read and i answered what you were interested in. wish you a less messy and less hurtful self-discovery if you're still on your way to figuring things out for yourself!