meow · 7mo
archive user minomoroll. i'm sorry it's been so long. i'll explain everything, i promise. keep in mind i love you.
my sister died. in a car wreck. i was mad at her and didn't say goodbye or i love you or hug her before she left. now i will never get to even see her again.
i have already experienced this once before with my mother, barely a year ago. it hurt me too much to experience it again.
i'm sorry, mio, i'm so sorry. i attempted. it didn't work, obviously. i still don't know how to feel about that.
i took as many pills as i could, but it didn't work. somebody found me and found the empty pill bottles and called 911.
i'm sorry that this couldn't be a love letter, mio. i'm so sorry.
i don't know if i'll be back, but i love you either way. xoxoxo —p♡
i miss you my loveliest anon. i hope you know i have been waiting for you to pop in here every single day for the past week, and i am genuinely so glad to see you here today. i cant describe how relieved i am that they had found you, so you don't have to apologize for this not being a love letter. you could send me a cat picture and id still be happy.
truthfully, i refuse to just say 'i understand' in an effort to comfort you because i genuinely dont. i just will never understand how it could be so painful, it is complicated, the grief that comes with their lost presence and everyone deals with it differently. so feel what you feel, you are doing very very well. and i care for you a lot so hey, dont leave! if you don't have any reason to stay, then i will give you one. talk to me, send me messages in dms, maybe just send dumb stuff to me. whatever it is, i will always always wait for you to come back, i love you lots <33
