nonnie · 1d
oh to be sbn young and impressionable and filled with adoration and silliness. :pp BLEEGHH!! idea time. sbn is so young nd impressionable, he’s content w his life right now. his studies are.. okay. his friends are nice when they don’t make fun of him for his big silly glasses and shaky hands when he fangirls over k4ra. but it feels like his heart swells when a new teacher arrives nd its. erm. gyv. why not. gyv is so pretty, so.. pretty. sbn can’t really think past that. his hands r so clammy and his breath hitches everytime gyv even looks st him. so imagine his surprise when his pretty teacher kisses him after school. sbn’s heart pattering and gyv smiles so wide. whispering words that they’re boyfriends now. the age gap is so scandalous but sbn is so impressionable and young all he can think abt is that this is just like a fairytale. like anime, where hes found his soulmate. they skirt on the edge nd sbn loses his virginity in a classroom, in year 12, no lube, unprepped. it felt more like being an afterthought than being a loved bf but it was okay!! sbn was sure gyv just had a lot of stress under him, he clung to gyv. sharing silly cards, birthday cards because sbn splurged his allowance on buying matching rings. when one day sbn is left in class, he expects a warm kiss as usual, more teeth than tongue but. it’s his beloved boyfriend, his husband. (he whispers that to himself at bed, 8pm because he still has a curfew.) asking if sbn would give his life for him. sbn is instantly a bit terrified but gyv’s smile is so pretty nd he’s older and so smart and knows so much about the world. this is normal. sbn nods shakily, shyly requesting that gyv does it as painlessly as possible. just the image of sbn. eyes fluttering weakly, in his cute school uniform, leaning in to kiss gyv. blood pooling around him. gyv licking up the droplets on his tummy. his first nd his last bf.
(.. mama a toxic yuri behind you.)
i really fw the idea of sbn.. freshly turned 18, doesnt really have any friends, probably has no direction to go with his life so he turns to gyv. gyv is new, exciting and way more experienced in life. sbn likes that. he idly rambles to bmg abt whatever he’s interested in. bmg tries to listen atleast, but mostly is there to grope the boy. sbn likes to feel small, sitting on bmgs lap and curling up and bmg adores it so much. I think hed start with inflicting small amounts of pain on sbn. flicking face. biting his ear… sbn is just a dumb thing who lets anything happen to him because he’s hopelessly in love.
one time sbn sits on his lap, gyv introduces his new idea. he wants to cut sbn. sbn is reluctant at first but thinks he should be a good boyfriend and just let gyv do it. he rolls up the sleeve of his uniform to let bmg cut his arms. sbn cant stop letting out yelps so bmg uses his other arm to wrap around sbn to cover his mouth. sbn doesnt like this at all, but he can atleast appreciate the fact that hes soso close to his boyfriend…. he looks down at gyv with teary flushed eyes and blood all over his uniform sleeve… so sweet
bmg definitely wants to jerk off to the sight
