RANT / VENT
you do not need to read or respond to this at all !

They keep trying to tell me I cannot move on from the issues that we once had when I literally have tried my best to for so long (ToT) I have blocked so many of the memories of them out of my mind due to the pain they caused me but they still believe that I can't get over anything. They even tried to tell me they're not an abuser nor were they ever, when that's the biggest lie I have ever heard. They caused me to live in fear & even had me neglecting my own partner. I was afraid to go against them in any kind of way. They have done so much more but those things are extremely personal & they scare me to even speak abt (𓏼 ˊ͈ ᵔ ˋ͈𓏼 ) I have moved on the best I can from these things but it's also something that had affected & still affects me to this day, so it's not that easy. I just wish they would leave me alone. I wasn't even trying to get their attention nor was I targeting them when I had redone my blacklist rentry. I am so sick of being told to forget abt these types of things. I WAS ABUSED & HEAVILY MANIPULATED I CAN'T JUST BE ALL FINE & DANDY. Yes it was 2 years ago but 2 years has past so quickly that it feels as if it was just a couple months ago. These things affect me & have made me a completely different person in a way. I hate how a 19 year old is trying to tell me to get over something this serious. If they think that I ruined their life then maybe they need to rethink. I was not the only person involved nor had I done anything as bad as they might have to them. It took me so long to detach myself from them, the amount of times I had reached out to them after everything bcs I missed them was insane. I just need them to grow up & realize the shit they did to me. They should know but instead they keep trying to justify that "i've gotten better & i'm in therapy getting help for myself. I've healed & moved on!" I don't care. Grow up. This will be the last I ever speak abt them. I don't want anything to do with them or their stupid friends. I just needed to yap abt this as it is rly bothering me.