i honestly have no idea LMAO... i've still been casually consuming things here and there in my absence from the fandom space but it was SUPER subdued. and then all of a sudden my brain went !!!??$%(@>$!!! and i felt insane again 😭

honestly i think giving myself time away from the bad parts of fan culture, allowing myself to be into other things at a more prominent level, and not forcing myself to feel any certain way was the perfect recipe to just... find my way back when i was ready! something just clicked, idk!! plus i love my friends and sharing nerdy excitement with them! and doyoung has always had a hold on my 2 brain cells, do not even worry