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anonus · 3d
i like to think that fyodor likes to be protected, in a scenario where nikolai ends up getting hurt to save fyodor, fyodor would be very impressed (and a little worried), he would be so kind to nikolai (even though nikolai is saying that hes fine)
Initially Fyodor would be surprised Nikolai stepped in to protect him at expense of own well-being. Then he'd indeed be impressed and start acting fondly (be it sincere or a tad bit staged for manipulative gain) and offer to tender the wounds. Nikolai's ego is hurt more than he is so he'd refuse but Fyodor is insistent - and has way more aces up sleeve than Nikolai can counter. Ofc it all ends up in Fyodor patching the wounds and caresses that make Nikolai all conflicted inside
anonus · 10d
By the way, congratulations on one thousand followers! While this isn’t exactly an ask, I didn’t know where else to leave this. I hope you have a wonderful day today :D
anonus · 13d
I'm starting to get excited when the manga started to shed light more about Fyodor's loneliness. Fyodor's goal seems selfless but ironically what he have done barely depicted that??
Same, I love that aspect of Fyodor's character a lot. There's a saying that the more brilliant mind the lonelier the soul and I think that encapsulates Fyodor's character quite well, especially if his immortality is taken into account. He's untouchable but that comes with the price - thirst inside him that would never be quenched.
As for Fyodor's goal, yes it is selfless at the face of it. However such strong motivation and diligence must come from deeply selfish reasons deep down. Ofc it's too early to tell and nothing can support my claims, but I believe just that loneliness (combined with maybe loss) have pushed Fyodor down that path, all under guise of abiding by God's will.
anonus · 14d
you seem so nice!!! i think i remember how you mentioned there’s only a few ships you see being romantic once, and now i am curious to know which ones do you see this way!
anonus · 14d
I’m actually starting to despise chuuya because of the fandom dawg
anonus · 14d
hi!!! i hope you are doing super well! if you don’t mind answering, how do you proofread? do you have any hints? and any hints for writing in general?
anonus · 14d
this chapter was so fucking sick and twisted do we get a pov change next month I wonder....i kinda want to see sigma it's been a while
anonus · 14d
i guess i just don’t understand why you said he rejected dazai? unless you mean as his equal but dazai has LONG since been rejecting him, cant believe they actually created requited unrequited love lol
Fyodor is bored and lonely at the core - he itches for companion that actually can reflect back at him. He's eager for a worthy challenge - and he found that potential in Dazai. In that aspect Dazai refusing to join him and see things from his perspective (rejecting him) doesn't dispirit Fyodor, instead encourages. Easy yielding would turn him off, he loves a challenge. He'd be even more determined to break Dazai in whichever way possible, test him and attempt to shape into someone worthy of standing by his side (from Fyodor's perspective)
If it were just about Dazai shooting Fyodor's endeavors down Fyodor would have said something like "Dazai-kun is too blind to see world from my perspective. He had remarkable potential, truly a pity he turned out to be charmed by humanity's foolishness" - implies disappointment in Dazai's decision, but leaves the possibility for mending. If Dazai is brought 'onto the 'right' track' Fyodor would gladly see him as his equal again. However Fyodor stated Dazai is no longer apt for such role, hence implied disappointment in Dazai himself. That's why I think Fyodor expected Dazai to outwit him in Meursault or overall do something different and was left disappointed victory was so easy to attain.
Is Fyodor's current view on things necessarily objective and immutable? Of course not. Maybe not at the moment but later on Dazai can still do something to surprise him or even beat him for good. But for now on Fyodor is overtaken by disappointment and anger that he's truly alone on this world. Every human imperfection Dazai views as a virtue Fyodor does a vice. The fact Dazai tried to spin narrative around that Fyodor lost because of just that (reluctance to rely on human's unpredictability) probably left a sour taste in Fyodor's mouth, especially as Dazai himself was being duped in that moment. Of course, it might be just an affect, Fyodor himself ain't above emotions, however for the time being he's disgruntled Dazai didn't pass whatever test he had in mind for him
anonus · 14d
fyozai fans rn experiencing an ounce of angst that fyolai fans experience all the time
anonus · 15d
bsd being monthly hurts so bad how tf am i supposed to wait a whole month to see whats next urggrhhhhhh
anonus · 15d
isn’t it way too early to say that? 1: dazai wasn’t confirmed to be outwritten and it’s not like fyozai had any actual implications (coming from a shipper don’t shoot me lol)
That Fyodor wrote Dazai off as his equal? But didn't Fyodor say so himself this chap? Tbf this isn't as much about the objective reality and whether Dazai will manage to come on top in the end, but about disappointment Fyodor seems to feel atm. I think Dazai managed to surprise him here and there during Meursault arc but that inevitably it all ended up according to Fyodor's plan - and that's why he's left with a bittersweet aftertaste of loneliness in the mouth. And this is actually a plus in my fyozai book, I'm a big fan of angst
anonus · 16d
i like to think that nikolai really likes fyodor's hands, and he usually greets fyodor by kissing his hand as if he was courting him in the last century
anonus · 17d
hi! i love your work! you are one of my favorite writers that i discovered recently. if you don’t mind me asking, what is your opinion on proshippers? i am sorry if you already answered this before. have a good day! (˶^ ᵕ ^˶)
anonus · 19d
do you think Dazai is strong too considering he is almost the same weight and height as nikolai?
Hmm yes and no? He's not fragile ofc, has some martial arts skills and can punch good. So in terms of a regular 'ability-less' human being probably yes, stronger than average. I mean he had to know some basic self defense aa port mafia executive. But on the other hand I'd say characters like Nikolai or even Kunikida are physically stronger bc of the training, nothing more
anonus · 22d
It’s hard for me to believe that people around Nikolai don’t fall in love with him instantly. his personality, his charisma, his humor, his intelligence, his looks, his everythinggg ahhh