i mean this in the nicest way possible, and please know that this is coming from someone who knows how you are feeling, but it can be difficult to talk to and engage with someone who is already on the defensive about being lonely and sad. i know making friends is hard but sometimes it feels like you’re pushing people away before they can get close to you- which i get! i do that myself! but if you want things to change, you might have to ask what you can do to help things change. i love you!