the fact that you want me to explain and say that i just want to be different is actually rude already. i would like you to go over with what you said and think about the tone you might have used. now since it looks to me like you really want to try to understand, i'll try making my answer as short and clear as possible. actually, minamz is what first caught my attention, boys planet, i wasn't aware much at shipping. (i'm actually new to rps) but later hao and jw became my ult (not shipping) it's just after debut that i started to ship them. as for sungseok, i have always found them endearing, and recently, i started shipping them too. as far as i know, notp means not one true pairing that means that you strongly dislike a pair OR pair them with another pair. in my case, i'm the latter. i don't have any animosity towards haobin, the ship or the members itself, not when i'm a big allin and rosin myself. i like their chemi/duo relationship, they are cute, i can see that and i know that. i know that they're really sweet and possessive of each other, but i just have different ships. same goes for mattparkz, i'm heavily influenced by gyuwook and geonrik already. and since i'm fixated on sungseok and jyungneul, i think it's only natural that i don't ship them with someone else other than my ships themselves. i hope this one is clearer. because i seriously don't have any ounce of hatred towards haobin, not when they're my ults, which i feel slightly offended by the way when i got people saying i hate hanbin when i'm slightly crazy about him. though i'd like to apologise for my tone as well earlier. i'm not big on socialising and big crowds and everyone being on my space is making me more prickly and agitated.