how do i move on after reading this
"hyojin cums so hard he thinks he sees god.
his god is a bleach blond boy beneath him in bed. a boy he’s worshiped all his life (...) a beautiful boy who’s babbling his name like a benediction, like a blessing. "

he finds god
hes worshipped this god all his life
hes being blessed by god
but
god is BENEATH him
god is calling HIS name in ecstasy and not the other way around

the way the concepts related to god are split between them is incredible this is essay-worthy