At the time, I'm not going to push on that. You know what you're comfortable with, regardless of why you feel that way. You do deserve to be happy, even if you feel that you're undeserving of it though. I do get with mental illness that can be easier said than done though. Fuck, I don't know, I'm just always hoping the best for you. I know it's hard right now but you're one of the strongest people I know, even if it doesn't seem that way to you.