i've been a fan of our renjunnie since 2018, in some way i grew up with him and since then i went through a lot of struggles with my sexuality, gender identity, developed extreme depression and anxiety. when renjun went on a hiatus it hit me very deeply since i would never wish a person so precious to go through the same things as me. he dropped 저 별, staring at the picture of his long hair, listening to the lyrics i felt so understood, obviously i wouldn't speculate anything but i think it is possible that renjunnie also went through some struggles with his gender expression, societal expectations thus why the long hair were so important to him he decided to show them off in one of the few pictures he posted during his hiatus, nevertheless i am incredibly proud of him and i want to continue seeing him grow as a person, he is so incredibly strong..