Belong? I never have. kindergarten, I was the weird kid who liked their plushies, I'd bring small ones to class to play with during recess. like little lizards and the such. one day I lost my favorite lizard, was playing hide and seek with it. but where I buried her in the gravel, someone else came by and took her. elementary was much the same, except just the weird kid. no friends, excluded from the groups. bullies and the such. middle school I changed schools, made a few friends but was still just a drifter between groups. few hangouts but not much to say. none of the shapes open were fit for me. growing up there were no other people or things to play with besides my dogs and eventually chickens. I got to be really good at knowing what they needed or wanted. they were my friends, but I'm "people". highschool, I didn't last a semester before almost flunking due to a few bouts of strep (one really knocked me down a few pegs with 105.6⁰F) and mono. switched schools to one more suited for people with dyslexia and autism and such. made friends. they kept me around, and I thought I'd made friends and fit in. found out after 4 years they only had me around for a joke between friends and didn't like me really. have bounced from group to group since. I. just don't fit. I've changed my shape so many times I don't know what mine is. nowadays I'm just myself that comes naturally. but even then. nothing changes. I don't know what's wrong with me. I never got the instruction manuals it seems.