TOYOIN squad 2024 · 7d
I don't usually read an "angst" update more than once kasi ayaw ko paulit ulit masaktan. 😂 but for this i will make an exemption. Char lang. I read this 3x - from 3 diff perspectives para itodo na ang sakit. 😭💔 i was originally going to send an essay but intentionally delayed it since i dont want to carry the emotions when i was working on something (hindi ko pa nmn style manakit) 🤪 . So ito na. Mahaba to 😭
For Ji's side i understand it 💯%. Why she couldnt tell him even if she wanted to, why even after all the chances she had, she waited until the last minute. Was it selfish? Maybe yes. But more than that, i think it was mostly fear. Kasi she has never had that kind of love & happiness until Hyun.
Parang nagsisimula palang sila. Kung ako un baka ganun din mangyari. There will never be a perfect time to break the news. It's so easy to judge but if you are there in her shoes, you would want 2 hold on to the good times, delay the inevitable for as long as u could only to realize it later that it back fired.
It's a default response siguro? Thinking that withholding information like that is protecting the other person but in reality, it's what i usually refer to as a "band-aid solution." Yung tipong tinakpan lang sugat pero di nilagyn ng gamot kaya pag tinanggal mo, andyan parin. In short, a temporary solution or delaying tactic. Eme lang na analogy. 🤣
What i admire sa character development ni Ji is wla siyang toyo dto. Haha. She fully accepts & acknowledges her fault in this. Walang blame shifting. Tanggap niya agad. I think the realization of how she ended up hurting and breaking Hyun's trust amplifies her own pain. Mas 2x ang sakit.
We have 2 consider Ji's background in all of this. Di nmn yan lumaki sa happy family eme na open sa feelings. She has had trust issues before (esp sa ex) so she's the type who would want to try to fix or handle things on her own. She's still trying to discover who she is outside her family name at the same time, being a partner to Hyun. It's not an excuse but i feel like it's valid why she made those choices.
As for Hyun...wala eh. Not possible to dislike him at all. He's always been the one who leads the relationship. He knows what he has to do but he is not afraid to voice out his pain, confusion, and doubts. When i first read this, my heart went out to him more. It's not easy to be honest in a way that you will not throw hurtful accusations or words to the one who broke your heart/trust. Imagine humarap pa siya sa tatay ni ji at pinaglaban wag ma delay ung kasal when all along may gnto pala balak si Ji. the angst? Ang sakit. 💔
That last part ung sabi nya maybe they werent ready to get married, tama naman. As a shipper (???) Siyempre gusto lang natin ng happy happy lang but real life does not work that way.
We should all keep in mind na ung timeline nila dito is di pa ganun katagal. Kailan lang naman sila naka graduate sa taguan ng feelings. 😅 Nasa honeymoon stage pa sila so u cannot expect na biglaan mature at alam na nila gagawin. TBF namn mature na sila sa pag handle nito based on the conversation they just had.
At least this time both of them can work on their communication. Bata pa naman sila (feeling ang tanda ko na? 🤨) kaya madami pa sila time kilalanin isa't isa. Marriage is a different ballgame than being just engaged or in a relationship. They are 2 imperfect individuals with their own character/attitude/set ways.
They need to find the balance and compromise. Whether the decisions to be made are big (career, etc) or small (ano ulam sa breakfast, etc), prioritizing one over the other or finding the middle ground is a choice they have to make everyday.
Trials like this would either make or break them pero tiwala ako sayo authornim (kahit na nanakit ka ng valentines 😐) they would make this. I trust in your problem solving skills. Haha.
And i thank you 😝🫡
This is the longest message I’ve received so far (iyak) so much effort went into this! Is this like a farewell to retro since it’s shutting down? HEHE
I absolutely love this kind of reader engagement! There’s something so special about someone who not only connects with a story but truly takes the time to experience it from multiple angles. And you? Reading it three times? You’re incredible! I appreciate this so, so much!
You know what really stuck with me about your take on Ji? The way you perfectly captured why someone might keep a secret, even when they know they should speak up. It’s that deep, primal fear of losing something precious ehehe. Was it selfish to stay quiet? Maybe. But the way you pointed out that fear was the bigger driving force? That was so insightful. When you've never had this kind of love before, the thought of doing anything that might jeopardize it becomes paralyzing. Every “perfect moment” to tell the truth turns into another reason to stay silent because what if this is the last perfect moment you’ll ever get? :((((
The way you emphasized that they’re just starting out!!!! it makes everything feel even more fragile, doesn’t it? They’re still in that golden phase where everything is supposed to be perfect and magical. And what you said about there never being a “perfect” time for hard conversations? That’s so true. Every moment feels wrong. When things are good, you don’t want to ruin them. When things are bad, it feels like too much to add on. And before you know it, you’re stuck in this cycle of “not now, maybe later” until later becomes too late. I also love that you admitted you might have done the same thing in her position. Because honestly? Most of us probably would. We all like to think we’d handle things the right way, but when you’re actually in that situation :) when you’re the one who has to choose between protecting the happiness you have now or being honest about something that could destroy it, it’s not so simple anymore.
Ji’s character development? YES! Isn’t it so refreshing to see a character who doesn’t just go into defensive mode when confronted with their mistakes? No “but you don’t understand!” or “if you had just…”—just straight-up acknowledgment that she messed up. That’s real growth right there. I know she still has a lot to work on, but the way she handles this? It’s already such a huge step. Our toyoin girl is learning and continuing to growwwww!!!
I also love how you phrased it “It’s not an excuse, but it’s valid.” Because that’s exactly it. Understanding why she made those choices doesn’t make them right, but it does make them human. It’s the difference between seeing her actions as purely selfish and recognizing them as part of a deeper pattern she’s still trying to break. When you’re used to dealing with everything on your own, letting someone else in even someone you love as much as Hyun :))) isn’t just about making different choices. It’s about completely rewiring how you approach relationships, ahuh HAHAHA
And as for Hyun, yes! The way you pointed out how impossible it is to dislike him? Exactly! (UNREALISTIC) Because seriously, here’s a man who manages to express his pain without turning it into a weapon. That’s so rare.
Just imagine, you’re fighting for your wedding date, probably already sensing that something isn’t right, but still showing up and doing your best to fight for the relationship. Only to find out later that while you were doing that, your partner had a completely different plan all along. Thank you for appreciating Hyun this much. Everything you said, grabe, you completely captured exactly what I wanted people to take away from his character.
And your point about their timeline is so important!!!! they literally just got out of the “hiding their feelings” phase! They’re like relationship freshmen being handed a senior-level problem! But isn’t that kind of beautiful? Like, yes, they’re still in their honeymoon stage, still figuring out whose side of the bed is whose, and suddenly, they’re dealing with something so serious.
I love how you see this as a growth opportunity rather than just a crisis. Because you’re absolutely right, relationships are about making choices, every single day. Some big, some small. They’re learning how to be real partners, in real time, with real stakes. And maybe this is exactly what they needed, a wake-up call that marriage isn’t just about the happy moments, but about how you handle the hard ones, too.
They’ll get through this! Go, go, go! PARA SA SAMBAYANAN!
Thank you so much for this!!! I’m seriously so happy reading everything you said. You really took the time to put your heart into this, and I appreciate it so much. <333 (ACKACKACK)
