it was.. such a day haha! ill ramble about it to get out of my system

i honestly didnt even want to get up today haha my sleep schedule isnt the worst but its having me stay in my bed for an extra 20 minutes because im so tired still... and then i finally get up and hazily do my hair and dress myself and such. i tell myself that i like my hair but its damaged and all people do is just Pull it!!! Nobody compliments my hair!!!!!!!!!

ahh speaking of being mistreaten by people, we had new seats in science class and the girl i sit next to makes such..back handed comments at me. its like when someones your friend but you dont like the way they treat youuu. she makes fun of my face alll the time it just makes me so sad because i really liked her

and then i was in math and the person assigned to be my duo did Not want to be my duo and it Kind Of Hurt. i mean its not as bad since she did work with me and later liked me for how smart i was but Ahhh here comes the depressing embarrassing part--

i was picked to answer a question which included me saying the alphabet letters and uh ahhahaha my lisp is Bad and he could barely understand the letters i was saying it hurt really badly . i decided to write the answers on the board for him but JFHFJDHSH Uhhhh people kinda said things about me (like yknow. calling the autistic kid sped and crap Whatever) while i was writing and i wasnt Happy it made me not want to speak for the entire day.

then in gym i got hit in the face by a football, and immediately shoved to the ground after because someone assumed i catched it and the point of the game was to chase and tag the person who had the ball. i didnt mind much because ive had a long history of getting hit by sports balls but it still didnt make my day any better

and then i. had to deal with the girl in science and stuff i mean i dont hate her that bad we have good moments and can tolerate eachother she sjust mean to me sometimes and hurts my feelings. but this is exactly how every friendshil ive ever had went like so im not sure why im complaining

and then i went homeee i went home fast because i just wanted to go in my room and watch breaking bad essay videos . it makes me sadder that i didnt even do anything with anyone online today or even continue the kirby game but i digress. i was watching the videos but then i paused it to daydream for a few hours and went to bed .

Ahhh it was a terrible day. i tell myself maybe tomorrow will be better but its rarely ever Better and everything i have to deal irl with is just a constant reminder that ill never be Normal.