hello there. ah, feels like i really should explain this a little. sorry for causing a misunderstanding here, anon. the uneasy feeling i experience is actually because i'm afraid that i don't meet the expectations of the people who like me. you know, bad experiences are the reason. but it doesn't mean i'm not willing to try to break free from this trap. however, i don't want to use you as a means to escape that feeling either. i hope you understand.