Part of me always somewhat prepare for anything that basically will throw me under the bus, one of it being is the feeling of disappointment towards someone. I know there are numerous people out there whenever they’re extremely in love, it is easier for them to brush of that feeling and let it pile up until they can’t take it any longer. There are people who also manage to shows the feeling, let it sit first as they try to untangle them before expressing the matter to someone they love. As I get older, I tend to choose the latter for the sake of our relationship. I adore and love them so much, that I believe, expressing my feeling is a matter of conflict resolution, so that they could see that I feel that sort of feeling and I wish them to do something about it. On the other hand, I genuinely wish for them to do the same thing too.

See, there is a quote “I love you, Dexter, so much. But I just don’t like you anymore” in a film entitled ‘One Day’ (2011) and from that scene, we can clearly see that there will always a room for any sort of disappointment feelings and you still choose to love them regardless, and I will create that specific room for them, so that I could still think (I suppose) rationally before I conduct my speech for that matter.

I would say…. I wish to be a person who is capable to be their sanctuary’s. I long to be a person that is managed to give them the protection that they need. We all know that the world is such a cruel place, thus, there comes a day when everything is unbearable, and to be the place they could seek comfort for, to be the shelter of their tired soul and to give them my love as much as I could. Because, I believe everyone is capable to fall for someone and to express their love at most. But it is not easy to be someone’s number one speed dial call, to be the one that they seek for in case the day has turn from rainbow into hell-like-storm, hence it is what I am currently shaping myself to be for my future’s lover. Being one’s sanctuary is actually came from my favorite song entitled Sanctuary by Joji, if you’re actually asking where this idea came from (just in case, LOL). Thank you for the question, dearest Anon! I never thought there comes a day someone asking such a deep question, one that I’ve been waiting to share for a long time too.

This is an interesting question that I’ve been pondering for so long on how to properly give it its answer, considering the subject is what we believe as an easy task to do but very hard to define especially in words. Truth to be told, I’ve been searching for the definition of love for so long. I was once trapped in a condition where I believe love did not exist at all, luckily a dear lecturer of mine introduce me to one book that to this day I feel much grateful upon knowing its existential, moreover, to read it from the first page till the last.

Love is a feeling that is pure and selfless. The idea of love is beyond beautiful, it is contradictory did not only exist in a form of romantic love solely, nor that it will always reciprocate or even succeed at the same time. But every once in a day, we will stumble upon the idea of love, trapped or exist in it, and somewhat feel lucky enough to have that pure feelings toward someone. Referred from the book that I read, love is an art. Thus, in order to understand love we shall able to learn from it and through the process of learning, in term of mastering the practice and theory. To this day, the idea of love still feels rather abstract for me. But every part of love does made me feel like breathing at the end of the day. I actually have the definition of love that I believe is what I could easily relate for, I’m gonna attach it later through X! Anyway, thank you for asking this question.