Part of me always somewhat prepare for anything that basically will throw me under the bus, one of it being is the feeling of disappointment towards someone. I know there are numerous people out there whenever they’re extremely in love, it is easier for them to brush of that feeling and let it pile up until they can’t take it any longer. There are people who also manage to shows the feeling, let it sit first as they try to untangle them before expressing the matter to someone they love. As I get older, I tend to choose the latter for the sake of our relationship. I adore and love them so much, that I believe, expressing my feeling is a matter of conflict resolution, so that they could see that I feel that sort of feeling and I wish them to do something about it. On the other hand, I genuinely wish for them to do the same thing too.

See, there is a quote “I love you, Dexter, so much. But I just don’t like you anymore” in a film entitled ‘One Day’ (2011) and from that scene, we can clearly see that there will always a room for any sort of disappointment feelings and you still choose to love them regardless, and I will create that specific room for them, so that I could still think (I suppose) rationally before I conduct my speech for that matter.

I would say…. I wish to be a person who is capable to be their sanctuary’s. I long to be a person that is managed to give them the protection that they need. We all know that the world is such a cruel place, thus, there comes a day when everything is unbearable, and to be the place they could seek comfort for, to be the shelter of their tired soul and to give them my love as much as I could. Because, I believe everyone is capable to fall for someone and to express their love at most. But it is not easy to be someone’s number one speed dial call, to be the one that they seek for in case the day has turn from rainbow into hell-like-storm, hence it is what I am currently shaping myself to be for my future’s lover. Being one’s sanctuary is actually came from my favorite song entitled Sanctuary by Joji, if you’re actually asking where this idea came from (just in case, LOL). Thank you for the question, dearest Anon! I never thought there comes a day someone asking such a deep question, one that I’ve been waiting to share for a long time too.