sm's non communication with seunghan's hiatus, not to mention the fact that the fandom is INSANELY gross and rude towards rpf writers in general despite the fact that they literally beg for more fics to be written. the fandom is no longer a safe nor fun place to be unless you're a gf stan. also unfortunately i just cannot enjoy riize without seunghan, as much as i love the rest of the members. i cherish them greatly and adore them so much, but continuing to stan them has only caused me pain, especially because of the fandom.

when/if seunghan returns, i'm sure i will also return. but i need to prepare myself for the reality of one of two futures: 1) seunghan is no longer a member and riize will be 6, meaning i need to work myself back into loving them as 6 and supporting seunghan solo (in whatever he is doing), or 2) seunghan returns to riize and i will slowly work into supporting them again without as much pain as i'm in right now.

tldr; sm's lack of hiatus communication + the fandom fucking sucks. that's it, really.