honestly it took me awhile, i started off looking at things deemed ‘problematic’ by my friends and began lurking and stuff. i made this account as a alt to then look at said stuff and then follow and then interact with it. i kinda just realized that by doing that i was being much more authentic and happier than i was being friends with antis. it felt good not having to censor myself so i just began posting safer things then working my way up and found that there will be people of ur same weird niche that appreciate those things. eventually abandoned that account and distanced myself from my friends that were antis and met a ton of people into the same things that wouldnt judge me.

when i was talking to antis i felt such shame and guilt about myself in every aspect ( my sexuality, trauma, kinks, interests) but meeting friends like me on here i absolutely feel no shame anymore. like i get asked how i can even show my face drawing and posting the things i do and thats because i learned theres no reason to feel bad at all. people will tell you lolicons or people into ‘problematic’ media are horrible people and you will think that about yourself at first but actually meeting people like you and seeing good things in them can really make you gain the will to see those good things in yourself. id just work ur way up!!! people will think you are weird but thats how you filter people out