looking for a most likely deleted tkk fic. In the fic, jk was already married to an older man, and th a mafia leader. one of the plot twists of the fic was that jk's older husband had killed his whole family and jk was only one who has survived the bullet shot, but he suffered from memory loss afterwards and married the older dude. tkk in the fic have a very dubious-consent type of a relationship. the fic also had mpreg towards the end and well as jk taking revenge on his older husband. Would be really grateful for any help in identifying the fic/author or retrieving the fic file