hi! i'm doing great, actually.. extremely great. you made a big mistake asking me about my thoughts... about beomkai specifically. i'm sorry in advance. when you say thoughts i'm hoping you don't mean sexual ones because my mind isn't even in that sort of mood recently. i've felt so, so soft and seeing beomkai together in their own little bubble, their own little presence, it makes me melt. even with the others, they know how to get roped into each others presence and still take care of everyone else. i'm going to vomit just thinking about it.. my beomkai. beomgyu who coaxes a tired kai to sleep whenever he's unable to, playing with the small strands of his hair that always sticks up no matter how many times he brushes them down. whispering small phrases like, "my big baby" or "you're so precious" which makes kai feel so small in his arms. maybe when beomgyu's having a hard day, like the time he was sick and soobin was taking care of him. there was no way kai didn't rush to him in the morning, holding him tight and listening to beomgyu ramble about how awkward it had been with soobin afterwards, both laughing at his dramatic way of saying he 'didn't remember' when they both knew soobin wasn't stupid. not even just beomkai, i could ramble about /all/ of them.. i love them so fucking much. no one will understand how much i love them, damn