I don't mind at all haha (I hope you enjoyed the back and forth between me and my friend who I locked in RS jail for bothering me on a Sunday afternoon ). When I was younger, I was really eager to do defense work ( even did several internships at smaller firms that mainly did patent and non-profit environmental law to test my resolve ), studied a LOT, and quickly realized that I'm not argumentative enough to pursue law as a career.

So I'm studying psychology right now ( in undergrad ), concentrating on psychopathology, with the intent to use it in a legal context as an advisor/evaluator, as a professional in special education, as a treatment provider, or ( separate dream career path ) to study the onset of psychosis in young adulthood. Forensic psychopathology ( psychological analysis of mental illness/disorders as related to criminal behavior -- aimed towards solving crimes and making plans for prevention/intervention ) is my dream, and I'm working toward it, but there are so many other interesting things I want to do that I'm quite open to distractions.

Working as an aid and/or as counsel to the defense appeals to me, as does being a provider of assessment and treatment for those incarcerated ( I think society at large punishes mental illness as a way to circumvent providing care--and when 'care' is provided, it's often horrendously abusive and unhelpful, which is something I feel strongly about and want to see change ). Also, criminology, while fascinating in theory, is rarely used in practice because most of the data is correlational--and at most, you could help provide justifications for legal decisions as a way to help ( very very difficult ) or you could assist law enforcement, neither of which I want to do. I'd still love for criminology to be something I study, though. I dipped my toes in and found it incredibly theory-based but still highly inspiring.

All that to say, things are up in the air for me. I often forget it, but I'm still young and have plenty of time to sort out what I want to do and how I want to achieve it, so I'm not dead set on any one career just yet. Although I do fantasize quite often about opening an afternoon tea and coffee shop ( and the busy hectic lifestyle that it will give me ). But because of my lived experience, I'm quite passionate about making a difference--especially in prevention--for kids with CD/ASPD, who are often doomed to the justice system by a lack of support systems and intervention.

PHEW. I blinked and suddenly there was a gazillion words in front of me i am SO sorry. It's hard for me to rein myself in once i get started on something but i hope this was a thorough and helpful explanation of what i want to do :3 thank you so much for asking! i really love talking hehe, and sorry I took so long to reply ;_;

Oh my gosh!! So so many. I'm going to narrow it down to three that I've really enjoyed recently to keep things short! otherwise, i might hit whatever word limit is set for these replies . . . (￣▽￣*)ゞ

1. Before the coffee gets cold - Toshikazu Kawaguchi
   Short, sweet, and I, embarrassingly, teared up a little as I was reading ( reading, very appropriately, in a cafe with a cup of coffee ). The translation work might feel rough, but it really captures the vibe of Japanese storytelling and Japanese dialogue, especially. I felt right at home reading it.

2. Black Dhalia, Red Rose - Piu Eatwell
   Eatwell is excellent at what she does. She's got training as a lawyer, access to FBI documents, and a stunning review of the material culture left from the Black Dhalia murder and uses it all to present a SUPER tight case for what really happened January 1947. Admittedly, when I picked it up in the bookstore, I skimmed the first chapter not expecting much. But she just grabs you with her writing, and I'm honestly inclined to believe her, despite having some doubts myself because of other circumstances around other suspects. Really great work on her part.

lastly, on a lighter note

1. Blue Period - Tsubasa Yamaguchi If manga is your thing ( which I'm assuming it is, since, well, BSD ), I really recommend Blue Period! It changed my life. And by changed my life, I mean it made 16-year-old me drop all of their plans to go to art school for good and destroyed me emotionally. but I just can't help recommending it to everyone. Truly a work of art.

Gosh, thank you so much. I'm really glad to hear that you enjoy my writing agh it means the world. I hope you're having a wonderful day! TYSM!! <3