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Body swap ivantill
note: just a little drabble thing? shrugs...
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"Were you aware that you have perfect pitch?" Ivan says, in Till's voice.
Till, in Ivan's body, shudders. It's disorienting. Even the act of shuddering feels wrong; the movement feels wider, bogged down with more muscle and mass than he's ever had in his entire life. Ivan's expressions on his own face are making him nauseous. "Stop that," Till snaps.
"Stop what?"
"Smiling like that. You look... you look like a baby criminal."
"It's your body," Ivan reminds him. "Can you hum a C3? I definitely can't from memory."
C3? Till tries it. Something about his innate sense is--shit. God. Everything sucks. His voice is so low, what the hell. Whatever sound comes out of his mouth isn't a C3. Ivan laughs.
"Shut up," Till hisses. "Stop laughing."
"I asked for a C3," Ivan says. "You gave me a B4."
"Okay, thank you, Mozart."
"I like your body," Ivan says. "It fits me quite well. And your chest--"
"Stop groping me," Till yells.
"Never," Ivan breathes. "I have to seize the day. Carpe diem. You can grope me, if you'd like. I'm sure we have differences in our body that you would like to explore."
Till, resolutely, does not think about Ivan's penis.
"My pants are yours to unzip as you please," Ivan says, magnanimously.
"I hate you," Till chokes out.
mizisua and…. sex? maybe?
Hyuna & Till bonding over their freak boyfriends
i won't lie the concept of this is so funny if only because i think it would start out with mutual airing out of grievances, which then quickly transforms to till just listening to hyuna and thinking in his head, okay at least ivan's not THAT bad. okay at least ivan's not THAT bad. okay at least ivan's not THAT bad. okay at l-- repeat ad infinitum until till is actually feeling worried and says so and hyuna goes HAHAHA! hah... hahaaa... (head in hands)
ivan comes to pick till up from the hangout and they kiss on their way out. meanwhile luka has been messaging hyuna every 45 seconds and hyuna is considering fleeing the country but knows that luka would be in the neighboring seat. so she just gives up and goes home because she does like him at the end of the day. unfortunately. the end LOL
hello a little late to the party and i know this isn’t how it necessarily works but would be a fun idea for if ivan choking till during r6 was also him sneakily unlocking his collar but keeping it in place!
brother i won't lie to you. the logistics of this would be so crazy ivan would have to have insanely dexterous fingers and in the heat of the moment idk if he'd be able to manage it... especially while getting shot.... but something to a similar effect it's always cool when ivan does things that seem to hurt till or push him away when it's protecting him, and till never finds out until it's too late. thanks for the prompt!!
Wait wait ivantill fwb in canon setting where till is too ashamed of himself for doing this (because he did not escape with ivan) to look ivan in the eye during sex cue really angsty sad sex and miscommunication on both sides
i'm always going to go feral over how happy and shook ivan gets whenever till demonstrates that he /knows/ ivan and notices his habits
no joke this is one of my favorite things to slip into fics if i can find the room, but there's this little hc i have (in modern au at least) that till knows ivan so well that he predicts ivan's. coffee orders. like "just get ivan a hazelnut mocha with whipped cream and cinnamon on top, he sounded a little annoyed on the phone today" and then ivan arrives and goes yay!! thanks mizi! and till's like I GOT IT FOR YOU FUCKFACE and ivan goes .....? you ............ what? (error 404) idk. it's just fun. ivan will never be able to properly process that till does pay attention to him and commence organ explosion
How do you think io’s presence affected till? I’ve been thinking a lot about the context his forced separation from her adds to the meteor shower and the flashback in r7 with mizi. There’s an interesting parallel of those two scenes where he’s unable to let himself reach out to the two of them despite very clearly wanting to. He only finally manages to reach out to mizi after being traumatized into doing so through ivan & mizi’s (though assumed in her case) death
the latest alnst friday comic was definitely fascinating to me because i thought that vivimeng really put so much thought into conveying the idea of how "love," that didn't necessarily stay for long or be affirmed between two parties, can still seep into someone and shape how they see themselves and interact with others. one of my favorite lyrics from cure, to this effect, was 너로 물들여 / 네게 물들게 (aka "let me drown in you, i'll drown in you" in till's and ivan's verses respectively) because thematically it felt resonant with one of the final lines in the comic, which was "...그리고 그 흔적은 끝까지 산물을 외로운 소년으로 내버려두지 않았음을."
for cure, it's more an all-consuming love that you want to overpower you so that everything else seems less scary, but it's still the core idea of wanting a love that leaves those traces in you, a love that leaves you changed. i thought this idea was beautifully echoed in the till&io comic, because it's just conveying that idea that love (those traces of io's love in till that he might not actively remember, but still carries with him) didn't leave him ever feeling lonely. it's the idea that love can change you, protect you, seep its colors into you, even when you can't recognize it or consciously remember it because it happened so long ago.
those lines from cure are some of my favorites from that entire song because i like to think that it's also quite representative of the ivantill relationship in canon, where they never really professed their love for each other (ivan more than till, obvs) in words, but the way they interacted with each other, built a relationship of trust and camaraderie with each other, comforted each other--all that was in its own way a form of "love" even if they never knew to call it that. i'm not quite sure if i'm making sense, but i think the comic with io really put into perspective how the existence of love (and the time he spent basking in io's warmth and love in turn) allowed him to grow confident in his abilities, express himself honestly, and never really act in the self sacrificial way that the other candidates did. he wasn't lonely, because he was loved--and that's not something that he had to remember in order to feel it.
on the sadder aspect of io's impact on till, i definitely think there's an element of how that abrupt (and traumatic) separation blocked out his ability to entrust his emotions fully to another person. as you said, it's interesting to think about in context to the meteor scene and how he interacts with mizi, because happiness isn't something he seems to actively chase as opposed to watching it from afar, maybe because he's afraid of the vulnerability and emptiness he might feel when it's taken from him again. the meteor scene is one of the few scenes where we see him so unabashedly happy. of course mizi seems to be one of the reasons he turns back, but i have to wonder if there was a fear in his head that were he to leave and chase that freedom and happiness with ivan, it would just crumble and leave him in an even worse state before--and that's why he chooses to return to the cage he knows, because at least the type of pain and emptiness he faces there is something he's already familiar with. idk it's very interesting...
there's also his relationship with mizi to factor in as well for sure. i have the opinion that till did love mizi, but his love for her was largely out of convenience and his own ego and from his perspective as an artist, which is why he never really seems to be bothered by her love for sua. he never expected or wanted it reciprocated in the first place. the patreon mentioned something to the effect of how she caught his eye because she's the only one who could keep up with his genius, which is admittedly a very cute reason, but it also gave me the impression that till loves mizi because she's easy to love. she's bright, pretty, happy, and loving her would largely be an uncomplicated affair that he doesn't have to invest in too much emotionally (compared to, say, loving someone like ivan, who is much more... gestures). i'm not denying that he has a crush and a love for mizi and that she was his beacon and hope at the end of the day, of course, but i do think that from how he sees her, how he interacts with her, how he remembers her in his head--all of those reasons paint a picture of her role almost as a muse? to inspire him and allow him to live without much investment or sacrifice or vulnerability on his part. idk. i'm very much rambling and being long-winded and obvs these are just my opinions, but i guess those are my thoughts? if you've read this far thank you for reading haha
tl;dr io's presence and her love and warmth seeped into till that encouraged him to become someone who never really felt lonely, because being raised by love allowed him to connect with those around him in an honest and unfiltered way, even if he doesn't necessarily remember her or being loved by her. on the other hand, the way they separated so traumatically is something that i think might have impacted him negatively in his hesitation to chase after his own happiness, until it was too late. (final disclaimer that these are just my opinions and how i'm reading the disclaimer, do not send shit after me for this, but i'm open to reading other interpretations and thoughts as well xoxo)
Prompt: I’ve been thinking about everyone lives au where till maybe comes across an artifact like a movie showing a sex scene where it’s just really loving and tender and seeing that it’s not the traumatic act that the aliens inflict on them. Seeing that even this form of love the aliens tried to take from them and he starts thinking that he wants to take that back. What I’m trying to say canonverse ivantill smut please if you’re ever up for it 🥺
hmmm this is just my opinion but i think that in canonverse, ivan and till wouldn't really find sex as something that they'd actively try to "reclaim"; as it is, both of their experiences with sex are probably irrevocably marked by trauma and violence, and i can't really imagine that reclaiming it and trying to rewrite those memories based off a movie of how sex is supposed to be would be enough to get them (much less till) to make that effort. it's just my opinion that in canonverse at least, sex for the both of them would become something of an unhealthy coping mechanism, a way for them to feel "connected" with another human being that they trust, or something that they fumble into by accident with a lot of fear and trepidation.
i'd love to write canonverse ivantill smut but tbh i can really only ever manage shorter fics for ivantill (in a sort of "missing scenes" esque type plot) in canonverse because the amount of character work to make that plot work with the type of accurate characterization i want would be insanely hard? if that makes sense. i definitely have a few longer ideas for canonverse ivantill, especially if they both lived and made it out of alnst, but i'm not really sure when that would be written since, needless to say, it would be extremely taxing emotionally and mentally to write haha. it's definitely something i'm thinking about and trying to figure out in my head before i try tackling it on the document. thank you for the ask!
Thoughts on older till and younger ivan dynamic? 틸선배? 틸형?
this gets my metaphorical penis so hard so yeah nods so furiously my head snaps off etc. till hyung and little ivan dynamic is best imo when till is so used to ivan being cute and disarming and playing innocent that even when he grows up to be a menace (always was a menace but he just doesn't bother hiding it as well anymore), till's like "why are you guys bullying an innocent kid??? back off" and innocent kid is like 186 cm 79 kg benches 400kg idk. it's great. i'm gonna write it one day it's definitely on the agenda.... thank you for the ask....
guideverse au ivantill and/or mizisua? with sentinel/esper till and sua & their guides ivan and mizi...thoughts?
guideverse at its peak is Porn so i hope you asked this not only from me but also ash quillifer who breathes porn the way i breathe fluff salutes godspeed soldier
Wait, prompt: the cast (main 4+hyuna & luka) going on a road trip but canon compliant…. Round 7 happens but till survives the gunshot and hyuna gets luka out too. They later find out sua and ivan’s bodies were preserved and they were still alive (don’t think too hard about it). Imagine the drama of them all going on some random road trip with all their issues with each other (mizi who wants to KILL luka for pulling the shit he did with her and till, till who can barely even look at luka, luka who is immensely entertained if not for his looming unresolved drama with hyuna, hyuna who is taking one drink after another and refusing to let herself be sober for this, hyuna also seeing somewhat of her brother in till while luka just stands there 😭, mizisua drama because mizi’s whole wdym you always planned to die and sua’s whole feeling threatened by mizi having a life outside of her, ivantill drama is obvious but also this Ivan will have seen round 7, sua & ivan interacting with luka) You can probably think of more interesting stuff than me but this is the gist..
such a detailed prompt wow... i think it'd be an entertaining fic to think about in terms of trying to balance the humor and the drama, but if i'm being honest ensemble fics are such a nightmare to write that i can't imagine this fic being under 15k at least, and i don't have enough of an emotional attachment to this idea to write it sorry T_T but if you really want to read it, i'd recommend trying out the kinkmeme and requesting it there! but your ideas of the potential dynamics between all the characters for the road trip is def fascinating and wonderful to read. tysm for the ask!
im sorry if this is an annoying question, but i just finished reading your sakuatsu serie (the hp one) and was wondering if you had plans of finishing it one day. i can see that you changed fandoms completely so i get it if the answer's no but i would love to read the ending of your fic. i love your work btw 10/10 never stop writing
not an annoying question at all esp considering how kindly you phrased it! the short answer is that i don't know if i'll finish it. long answer is, i never consider any of my fics discontinued because i do want to finish every wip i have (posted at least), but the hp au was always something i struggled with because to me the best ending for that fic would be a happy ending. the issue is writing a happy ending that i felt would resolve all of the character arcs in a neat way to my satisfaction, and i think i'm still not a skilled enough writer to end the story the way i want to. it's on pause until i can figure it out or get sick of the unfinished status that i bite the bullet and finish it anyway, whichever one comes first. thank you for enjoying that fic and my other works!! it means a lot <3
HOLY SHIT YOU. YOU WROTE THE YOOHANKIM WEED FIC, DIDN’T YOU YOU BEAUTIFUL HUMAN BEING (rediscovered after alnst)
thoughts on a mizisua/ivantill roleswap? as in requited round 1 ivantill and then maybe a unrequited/less requited(?) round 6 mizisua? Maybe ivantill gave each other a second chance and mizisua started off on the wrong foot…smth smth?
hmm i've thought about this but i think roleswap with mizisua and ivantill would be (if not downright impossible) too out of character for me to consider writing. i think mizisua are more placid in personality than ivantill who are kind of mildly infected with rabies to say the least, which is why their dynamic works the way they do, and i can't really imagine any inciting incident happening that would change that core dynamic enough to allow a roleswap in the first place. but thank you for the prompt!!
au where till matches ivan's freak/is the freak as opposed to ivan?
i think the freakiest i could write till (without delving into nsfw (which gives me poison damage to write and also only happens once in a rare moon when i'm possessed by an ancestral spirit or something)) was himedere till seen here
but for freaky tills that match ivan's freak (because i don't know if he can outfreak ivan that's kind of a tall order) i recommend most if not all of ash quillifer's catalogue here. specific fics i would recommend are:
1) at what point do you stop calling it a crisis and start calling it a kink? -- till thinks about ivan's hair and attains something of an oral fixation
2) accidents happen...but maybe not that many times -- pee ft ivan being a freak but till is weirdly into it so i think that counts
3) what's another bad decision or two? -- exes to lovers ivantill where till can't stop thinking about sex with ivan because everyone else is mediocre and deeply vanilla and therefore disappointing
those are my top picks!! but other selections include (not hyperlinked bc it's a hassle to do it everytime):
https://archiveofourown.org/works/57263413
https://archiveofourown.org/works/58389178
https://archiveofourown.org/works/57654796
https://archiveofourown.org/works/59326204
https://archiveofourown.org/works/56984110
https://archiveofourown.org/works/57373288
https://archiveofourown.org/works/56695150
https://archiveofourown.org/works/55701277
https://archiveofourown.org/works/59423026
https://archiveofourown.org/works/60417700
hope that fills you up anon (salutes)
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