hi! you’re very kind, thank you for your concern! unfortunately, getting help is not an option for me, and it won’t be for a very very long time. i understand your worry, but this is what works for me. i’m comforted and i’m happier when i have an outlet. believe it or not, but my mental health has improved significantly since i started this account. it’s been almost two years now so i think i can handle it on my own.

additionally, i also just. like horror art/fic? like it’s something i enjoy. akitou gore brings me happiness lmao. i like it the way someone else would enjoy horror/slasher games/movies and stuff. thats another reason why i have this account, i’m posting it here so that my mutuals who don’t like it don’t have to see it.

thank you again for your concern anon ^__^ if you want to discuss more my dms etc are open. but for now, i have no plans to drop this account

hi!! unfortunately i actually don’t know many T__T i used to be a BIG fan of whorurumingfrom but they went priv and deleted multiple works. surprisingly, there’s a lot more touaki gore than akitou—and it seems to be centered around akito, so very little good toyagore… maybe i’m just bad at looking lmao
if you’re okay with toak, pinkmar3 is an artist i like. there are lots of artists who have drawn gore in the past but don’t do it much anymore if at all, so i don’t have many good recommendations :(
being honest, your best bet might just be scanning my rts, because i usually retweet anything i can find 😭😭 im sorry i can’t be more of a help, i really wish i could! good luck on your search…and if you find anyone good show me too

i looove demon akito 😭😭 i’ve actually never thought about frankenstein’s monster toya before strangely LOL. but its a good idea… he’d be very pretty with his body sliced up and sown together

in regards to demon/creature, i’d like to think toya was a mortal that akt fell in love with, and when he died akt couldn’t let him go so he stole his body and got help reanimating it so he can stay by akito’s side forever. i don’t think akt could last without toya by his side, much less for eternity, so this was for the best he says. toya thinks maybe it’s selfish to cheat death like this, but for the sake of eternity with akito, it’s probably okay. even if the reanimation fucks with his brain and body. makes his head foggy and fatigued and his body malfunction since technically it isn’t even meant to be working…

hi again anon ^__^ you’re right i do love dog akito (it came free with being an akitou fixer. slash joke) so i’m happy to explain my reasoning behind it. personally i can’t see cat akito like…at all, so if you want to explain that too you can. or if you see him as a different animal

basically to start, i’ll begin with the most obvious thing—he just has a lot of canon dog content. his duo name with toya is BAD DOGS. his first event is “stray bad dog”. in kick it up a notch, he got a dog-themed card. his co-op show team name when paired with kohane is something like “hamster and wolf in sheep’s clothing” (though i have to double check). in cgo the video game avatar he chose was a wolf. it’s just…constant and consistent, so it’s obvious (to me) that they have some kind of messaging they want to get across.

now dogs especially stray/street dogs such as akito have a lot of trauma related issues regarding trust and socialization due to their past experiences. when akito first started out on vivid street he was pushed back on and belittled and treated incredibly poorly by other musicians which ends up with him not trusting them and instead relying on himself for everything. he’s untrusting when he gets a bad feeling from someone (ever hear a story about a dog biting a friend/partner only for that person to turn out bad in the end?). yet like a dog he’s so massively loyal to his dream and to vivid street. he gets kicked over and over and always comes back.

his fear of dogs—while usually a point for those who insist he isn’t one—can also tie into this because you can say that it’s represented by these experiences (being bitten as a child and developing a fear = being harassed at the start of his time at vivid street and developing the issues he has with his self worth and other things). it’s also a case of a literary device (irony) at work—because akito as a character is made of contradictions. he runs off on his own but is made up of what he got from others. he wants to live despite having wanted to die. he has no natural talent but massive learned skill. he’s “hopeless and naïve” but more determined than anyone. he hates dogs but has so much dog theming. not only that, but there’s the fact that he swallows his fear and keeps pushing—he was terrified out of his mind back at crawl green, but sang anyway. he freezes up when he sees a dog but puts on a smile and tries not to flinch.

additionally dogs are very very social most of the time while cats generally are ok with doing their own thing (of course there are clingy cats but while they tend to cling to their owners they are more independent by nature while dogs aren’t like that at all, usually). a big part of akito’s arc is learning to lean on the others and accepting that yes, he needs their help and its okay to need people. akito CANNOT survive on his own. he needs his companions like a dog needs its owner or a wolf needs its pack. that’s kind of his whole thing.

also he’s very territorial? he’s extremely protective of his dream and refuses to let “just anyone” in (i mean look at how he treated kohane in mainsto) and is generally protective of his dream and his place in vivid street as well.

on a bit of a sillier note he also has a few dog traits in just his regular character…he’s physically affectionate, he likes having treats (mostly sweets) and really protective (watching over toya during the bridal event, making sure he doesn’t hurt himself in sdsc) and kind of possessive too (his pride in having toya as a partner and being jealous of tsukasa in the beginning lmao) thats just me and my delusions though

i hope this explanation helped a bit! dog akito is very important to me…