I am every piece of literature I have ever consumed 🫶 I wouldn't say there's one work that influenced me, but I like to think that I read a lot despite being a slow reader and read widely and that influences me slowly and steadily! Trash booktok romances, YA, thrillers, classics, or literary fiction — anything I'm in the mood for and I think it helps tremendously to improve!! Btw a few of my fave authors are Ocean Vuong, Dostoevsky, Emily Henry, Leigh Bardugo, Nghi Vo and Clarice Lispector. And of course I spent a big chunk of my life inhaling fanfics so shoutout to fanfiction writers who sometimes put published authors to shame!!!!!

okay, i have a few in mind that i feel too inadequate to write but still want to, so let's buckle up! most of my problems stem from that i feel like i'm not enough of a good action writer :') and yet i have all these ideas that require action-packed scenes so i'm losing these fights...
but! here's my (non-complete) aspirational fics list:
-my dream fic is and will always be a pacific rim fic, with some hard-hitting topics like losing a friend/living with grief, but you see... the on-screen mecha fights make me close the google docs window so fast.
-oomf has been posting about an atla au and honestly... i'm soooo interested, all the high-stakes and political intrigue ... but also -- i watched atla once in my life, when i was like 9 and it was on TV so i would have to do a deep-dive in the lore for it to come out well
-an x files au!! maybe mixed with horror elements. i just don't feel confident thinking up a fascinating mystery and storyline haha
all of these are jmj :') i really really want to challenge myself to get out of my comfort zone so i wanna write at least one of them!!

btw thank you for reading my works 🫶

obsessed with this question because i have a whole pinterest board just for jmj quotes haha but i’ll share a few
“Dear, much-missed Hitoshi – I tried to burn the line of his dear shoulders, his dear arms, all of him, into my brain. The faint colors of his form, even the heat of the tears running down my cheeks: I desperately struggled to memorize it all.” by Banana Yoshimoto - Kitchen (very jm-coded)

“The enormity of my desire disgusts me.” by Richard Siken - War of the Foxes

“I’m restless and harsh and hopeless. Though I have love inside myself. It’s just that I don’t know how to use love. Sometimes it scratches like barbs.” by Clarice Lispector - Agua Viva (for me it’s so mj… i love when she bares her love like a weapon)

and of course,
“I will love you as we find ourselves farther and farther from one another, where once we were so close... I will love you until your face is fogged by distant memory. I will love you no matter where you go and who you see, I will love you if you don't marry me. I will love you if you marry someone else--and i will love you if you never marry at all, and spend your years wishing you had married me after all. That is how I will love you even as the world goes on its wicked way.” by Lemony Snicket - The Beatrice Letters which i based the anatomy of a memory on hahaha

and tbh i think the whole pacific rim movie is just very jmj-coded. also the book ‘the seven husbands of husbands of evelyn hugo’ too. and also paper rings by ts, which is decidedly not a poetic masterpiece but i associate that song with jmj so hard because of that edit that haunt my dreams and no longer available online :’)