Imagine ynbn as love rivals????

sbn whose love language are acts of service & words of affirmation. yjn whose love language are (very subtle) acts of service, gift giving & quality time...

they realise in time that the love that they are giving to their crush is exactly what they wanted from their partner. they started thinking that whoever yjn / sbn's partner would be so lucky; to the point that they were both discourage by their efforts towards their crush. so the both of them stopped their efforts, stopped courting, put everything to a halt to make way for the other because "who the hell wouldn't fall for yjn / sbn's efforts? i would." everyone's starting to see that, maybe, ynbn are better together than as love rivals? they both denied it so badly that they wouldn't fall for the other just because their love languages align, right? but something sparked inside their chests, like a soaring bird that found what it needed to survive (a shelter, a mate, food?). but they shove the feelings away because there's just no way!

and when they finally meet again a few months after they put a halt to their efforts to court their crush, they congratulated each other,

"congrats on winning their heart," yjn said. sbn would be stun, "i didn't win their heart though? i thought you did," and they both laughed over their silliness 😭😭

they became friends, close friends, and they were reminded about how their love languages fit each other so nicely. sbn loved receiving gifts, yjn making time to go out with him, and giving him just what he needs when he needs it. meanwhile, yjn enjoys sbn's acts of service, his heart fluttered when sbn gives him the chicken part that he wants eventho sbn likes that part too, he likes when sbn says that he's "always pretty," / "always beautiful," / "always talented," / "always kind and smart," yjn just BASKS in it, he loves it sm.

you just know they end together in the end and their crush, well, ships them as well ✨🦦 oh i imagined it alright. 😔🙏🏼 the potential this prompt sparks would do wonders!

writing this as i let out a heavy sigh, hahahaha. first of all, the story is extremely good. it's a great experience for me, their dynamic was soothing but didn't escape turbulences, just like any other relationship. but i do understand that they clash on certain points due to their age difference, lack of communication, and internal issues that they have struggled with for a long time. part of me feels like even if they communicated about it, it wouldn't work. sbn could see that yjn was struggling with a lot of things in his life but chose to be passive and he wanted to be passive bc that would secure yjn. meanwhile, yjn kept a lot of secrets so he could secure sbn by his side too. they didn't trust each other to grow in this relationship; hence, that was also a factor why they didn't work out.

anon, i have to admit and i must beg you to not judge me for this, that i could tell what the ending would be like since the end of chapter 7. so, i read it in a dirty way since chapter 8, as in i skipped the entire chapter and went right for the ending. i'm going through some sort of a lethargic phase in my life rn, so excuse me for doing so 😭. (spoilers alert for the ending) - i wish people had told me that they won't end up together in the end... it was a happy ending for the characters, i could understand that but 😭 a warning would suffice for me. i didn't cry, whatsoever, because of beinf lethargic and all, nonetheless, it was a good experience. i'm glad i read this fic and it went through my way. the thoughts i can write out about this fic has been a tremendous experience, discussing about it really helped. 🫂

first of all, i'd like to thank for sending this hahaha. i'm itching to talk about it as well ;; despite ranting it like crazy in the dms with two people, i'm quite raging with emotions every chapter. you put it off for a year??? how do you do it, my lord... i can't wait that long for an ending, i gotta know it this week! applaud for you for finishing it, now you can let it rest? bury it in the deepest part of your memory. hopefully in the next 3 weeks, you're able to forget the emotional turmoil the fic had put you through ;; so far, i'm enjoying sbn's character, i do get the ick. however, at the same time, i'm obsessed with him... can i just rant a lil bit here...

sbn's character especially is driving me crazy. would it be okay to say that he's comparable to humbert humbert in loll!ta..?

as i progress the fourth chapter, i noticed that his view on yjn is SLIGHTLY better than the first 3 chapters? not by a massive difference, but from his pov, he's seeing yjn as more of a human with feelings instead of a little dove he wants to keep in a cage? i am probably wrong bc i'm only at chapter 4... (nervous laughter) i hope as i progress through, his pov gets a little lighter on yjn (but maybe not?!). pls tell me i'm wrong... or right. whichever. please.

yes! i think that's the thing with sbn's character. what i've seen so far is that, since we only are getting sbn's pov, he's the manipulative one in the story. he'd try to justify himself but only minimally because he knows what he's doing is BAD and sinful. he's not supposed to do whatever he's doing. sometimes, he'd say 'yjn is being manipulative' but yjn isn't - he's 18 years old, how is he being manipulative? time and time again had sbn mentioned that yjn is ... just a naive, inexperienced boy?

sbn's the adult, he should know better, but he refused to. i think the reason behind is because he's closeted for years. for that reason, he's inexperienced in lust & romance too. so when he meets someone in a 'controlled setting', his mind gears started running - "i can use this boy, test myself, and discard him after." that's so evil of him 😭 he'd say "i like you" to yjn and all but didn't even mean it... the irony after he looked down on that mathematics teacher for calling his students 'brats'.

honestly, i don't know hahaha i can handle this type of character. for me, yeah, it's dark, but unravelling sbn's mind is intriguing. like who in their right mind would think this way and admits it to themselves, no? i can't judge his character explicitly yet because i'm still at chapter 3, going chapter 4 rn, but to me he's interesting, and yeah i agree - it's what makes it fun in this fic (nervous laughter). he's fucked up and i can't wait to find out why (if the author ever reveals that). if he really plays with yjn for funsies then, yikes. geez, i really want to say more but i'm scared if my take would be controversial and some ppl could take it in a different way so i'll leave it as that! are you the anon who rec this fic to me days ago? pleaaase continue discussing this fic with me hahaha <3