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kerel ✦ anzu fan extraordinaire ✦ re/tweets about anzu ensemble stars ✦ consumer of idolxanzu/ドルあん/안즈른
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i feel like happyele needs to just give u anzu she’s fr ur oc atp
I wished there was a tone indicator here or a further elaboration because for some reason this makes me feel offended and I can't properly articulate my words as to why 🙃 (sorry if that's not the intention)
Hello! I can't speak English, but I'm using translation. If you don't mind, I'd like to see "Watch Me" https://youtu.be/whQ9VcK0pIA?si=SVNf19D6DrTqKeom with Mr. Kerel's MMD Anzu! If you don't mind, please think about it. ♡ Thank you for always loving Anzu!
Thank you for the suggestion! To be honest, I've had my eye on this song for a while too since I saw it shortly after it was released :DD Sadly, only followers of the motion tracer can download it, and you can only become a follower if you request via an account that makes mmds (which I don't have :(() so I don't think I can obtain the vmd file unless it gets released publicly for a limited time or something (;;w;;) but yes I agree I'd love to see magu-san's anzu model dancing this (´▽`)❀.
If we make anzu fanart can we tag you in it?
of course :DD I'd love to see anything with anzu enstars in it! (unless it's nsfw or gore or anything anti-anzu or something) it's all good ✧ദ്ദി( ˶^ᗜ^˶ )
Hi! I was wondering if you’d explain why you love Anzu so much? This isn’t meant to be judgey or anything! I’d just love to hear your story of how you came to love Anzu!
oooooooh the kerel liking anzu backstory! I've been asked this quite often back when I was still using tellonym, and i'm pretty sure i've described it in pieces but not the whole thing! to be honest, i can never fully articulate the right words to describe how it happened, when it happened or my exact feelings. I think I've been holding off on answering questions regarding why i like anzu so much because i know i might have more to say later, but i'll give it a try!
Warning: VERY RAMBLY and unorganized since i'm writing this as I think! Beware of typos and incorrect grammar!
i just think anzu is such a cool and interesting character! I need to sit you down with me for a second and just really think about anzu.
i kinda like supporting underdogs or characters that people don't normally pay attention to, and for me anzu really fit that bill. think about it, she's an MC that most fans overlook and just project onto, but there's so much going on for her. so much personality and development written between the lines that it's crazy. i saw that even before the anime in 2019, a few people have already dubbed themselves anzu fans either because of knowledge from engirls or from genuine support on where her story would go. even i remember when I binged the anime after all the episodes aired (couldn't tune in weekly so I waited instead) i vaguely remember looking fanart of her specially while watching (there was a bunch of new ones from people who watched the anime and celebrated her appearance, but overall it was still mostly art from people who has their own "anzu" designs y'know?)
she's the silent protagonist of enstars, who has a simple yet cute design! I love how she looks like every protagonist ever (simple brown haired girl) yet somehow still so unique? the light blue eyes makes her stand out, and the stand-out strand on her hair gives her a cool silhouette that the designer clearly added to make her stand out (i say designer, but i meant the storyboarder who doodled her often when the anime is airing, which i assume they may have designed her too because of how they worded their tweets and their evident affection for her :)) visually i think she fits in with the rest of the cast quite well (which is why I get annoyed when people see a brown haired girl and say "omg i thought that was anzu" like no??? there's so much more to her design than just brown hair???? and tbh her hair is bordering auburn or burnt sienna imo????)
speaking of fitting with the cast, she has a backstory and personality that makes her fit in so well with everyone! she doesn't feel like a normal girl thrown into a wacky world of idols, but a weird girl who has found a place alongside other weird people (which is EXACTLY the explanation used for her brother Tenkousei-kun in engirls, which just blows my mind because everything was planned and well-executed in my opinion). she's silent and a bit of a doormat due to her experiences in Kimisaki; she just wants to help her friends in any way she can because they've inspired her so much. her gratitude and affection manifests in the extreme hardwork and dedication she has for the idols. i think being able to read her perspective from the novels really helps to understand her mindset about how much guilt she feels from Kimisaki and how much she's become saved by the hand outstretch to her by Trickstar in Yumenosaki. she isn't very assertive, but kindly reaches out to others if she ever finds someone alone or in need of help as seen in multiple instances in EnGirls and EnStars. she doesn't talk much, but when she does she uses her voice to say important things (like what mao said). People naturally gravitate towards her because she's the kind of person who is interested in others and loves to care and listen to them. But at the same time she's also silly, goofy and can be mean sometimes too, just as she's always been in Kimisaki. She likes drawing and doodles to the point of spending most of her time in her old school and club activities drawing, and now doodling goofy characters in her proposals and notebooks. she's always been a creative one, with her art and sewing being prevalent in Kimisaki and becomes useful to her when she goes to Yumenosaki too. I think I remember even Akira making a tweet during EG's run that Angie(Anzu) is so cool and op. She has her own tastes that can be read in the text, such as liking muscles, little brothers, big sisters, dressing guys in cute and doll-like clothes. She's hardworking to a fault, and that just shows how much she loves the idols and how she wants to give them the very best that she can. Like she was a "slacker" in Kimisaki, but clearly she works very hard when it comes to the things that interest her, which makes her a terrible student but a great producer!
She has unique relationships with the idols, to the point where many people find any fanservice weird in the context of Anzu, who respects her seniors and adores her juniors to the point where it's hard to take seriously. I remember new engstars players tweeting in frustration over Hiyori saying that the Producer(aka Anzu)'s favorite unit is Trickstar, because it goes against their personal preferences. I remember MadaraPs frustrated that his minitalks for a while weren't in the Producer(aka Anzu)'s POV, because at the time there was friction between them. It's another instance of Anzu's personality and preferences leaking out, which goes against the desires of the players (because of course, we're playing as Anzu. Anzu is Anzu :))) Other players have put their story name as "Anzu" in acknowledgement to her as the Producer. Her close bond and undying support with Trickstar, her business partnership and rivalry with Ibara, her immense respect and admiration of Keito, her adoration of the muscle-head idols like Kuro or Jun or Madara, her indescribably complicated relationship with Madara, her sisterly bond with Arashi, her protectiveness over the younger idols she sees like her younger brothers like Hajime, Tori or Mitsuru, and etc. are all so good!!!!!! It makes me almost feel bad for any yumejins whose tastes and preferred relationships with the idols are in contrast to Anzu's writing (because there are.... I've seen them... they aren't happy.....)
I think a lot of the way Anzu is written is just so cool and meta as well???? like think about it. NiceP says that she couldn't "see her color" when he reviewed Anzu's proposal. he couldn't see her personality and interests at all in her work. Not only is this a jab at how she represents the player so of course there isn't too defining about how she's written, especially in Era !!, but it feels like Akira is acknowledging that Anzu is stretching herself too thin to the point where she is no longer "Anzu" but is just "Producer". In the beginning of Era !!, Anzu is asked by Eichi to have everyone refer to her as just "producer" due to the environment they are now in, and she obliges despite it clearly making her feel separated from the idols in multiple occasions. Even Madara, who said he'll always call her by her name due to their bond, eventually switches to Anzu as well. Of course stuff like that depends on the story and writer, and of course they have to keep saying "Producer" for the sake of the players, but it really does feel like we've lost "Anzu", just like what NiceP had implied (we don't know where her arc is going now and it's clearly not being touched on too much in the tours so maybe it's supposed to be across more stories or a meta callout). Of course she's still there, duh every time we see the producer it's always going to still be Anzu, but like what @ATMforTKS mentioned in one of their analysis, it's only really Akira and Kinosei who is writing the same Anzu we had in EnGirls. All the newer writers seems to have the "self-insert" protagonist in mind, which if you imagine it in-universe is like Anzu really degrading herself to just the role of a producer.
Actually, most things about Anzu is just so cool and meta. The way she's a side character from the predecessor game who not only /constantly/ haunts the narrative in that game (oh if you saw my anzu activity breakdown doc you know she's mentioned A LOT), but also becomes the protagonist of the spin-off successor game??? Amazing???? how Anzu's name "Angie" (and pretty much her entire character in general) wasn't conceptualized by Happy Elements and was decided by Akira himself, and she was born through the efforts of the writers (Akira in a tweet mentions that all characters, main and background, were conceptualized by HappyEle before being given to them to expound, except Anzu who was made due to the necessity within the story) and that's so cool!!! It's like she's someone they didn't expect but she's constantly fighting and proving her existence (the fans who erase her & happyele who wanted a self-insert protagonist versus anzu and the writers who constantly saying "look at her!! that's their producer!!). And then there's things like her quiet and silent personality, which IRL is because she's a protagonist that's meant to represent the player, but in-universe is perfectly explained??? she's never been assertive and talkative, and was even known in Kimisaki for being a slacker who stays quiet in the back of the class, but all becomes even worse after transfering from Kimisaki, which even Rei points out that her demeanor can only be explained by terrible experiences. She was part of a failed revolution in Kimisaki, which makes her passion and drive to help Trickstar in their revolution make so much sense, and their success even extra satisfying and cathartic when you realized it's truly a victory for all five of them. She failed once, but was finally able to succeed with her new friends.
Plus even her arrival in Yumenosaki has backstory, she wasn't just some random girl who got thrown into a new world out of nowhere for no reason like what others may think. Kimisaki wanted to get rid of the students who were causing trouble, Yumenosaki wanted a capable, smart and intelligent girl who can be their test subject for the Producer Course, fulfilling their need for a female student for their future co-ed switch and a producer for the idols in one go. Anzu hears of this and immediately jumps in at the opportunity, not even really thinking about it because of how desperate she was to transfer, which is convenient for Kimisaki and Yumenosaki (although she probably wasn't the girl they expected, but they still got the capable producer they wanted in the end). Just reading the opening pages of the novel, how anxious Anzu was to enter 2A and how she's already given up hope of her school life because of how she fears everything will go the same way before being blinded by the light that is Subaru's idol aura MAKES ME FEEL THINGS!!!!!! the hurt she feels when Trickstar gets broken up, because of her past experiences MAKES ME FEEL THINGS!!!!
My inner "support the unpopular character" thing really kicks in remembering how Anzu never belongs wherever she goes. She couldn't find her footing in Kimisaki Academy, and just as she finds her friend group they all got bullied by the student body, hated by the teachers, and had to transfer out. In Yumenosaki, at first she's in the Idol Course where she gained lots of friends! but she's still the only female student and only producer, plus everyone was pretty vile to her in the beginning. In the next year, the Producer Course has been established! there are so many underclassmen producers who are both male and female! But, they don't like her because of how close she is with the idols, they think she's intentionally monopolizing them and think they are better than her because a lot of them enrolled under a recommendation. In Ensemble Square's Producer Association, Anzu has lots of co-worker producers and media practitioners! But they are easily willing to throw her under a bus and kick her out just to hide how easily their authority overseeing SS was easily taken by a third party, and is very willing to ruin her reputation to be able to do so. BUT THAT'S OKAY SHE'S INDEPENDENT NOW SHE'S OUT OF ES WOOOOOOOOOOOO. In real life, Anzu has lots of fans! But most people, especially those who came in from EngStars (although it's always been prevalent even before that... I would know... I experienced it...) only consider her to be a "self-insert protagonist made to be projected onto" and confidently disregards her existence without knowing her personality, history, backstory, and character arcs. SEE??? ANZU ALWAYS LOSES!!!! when i see a character like that, it makes me want to support her even more! to give her all the love that she deserves but doesn't get!!!! AND I WILL GIVE IT ALL TO HER!!! even if i am the only audience!!!!!
Knowing Anzu's story from EnGirls and putting that together when reading EnStars makes everything feel sooo complete in regards to Anzu's feelings and actions, I cannot stress that enough. I genuinely can't imagine anyone taking Anzu's place as the female student who enrolled as the producer. Everything went the way it did because it was "Anzu" who walked through those doors. Anzu, with all the emotional baggage, skills, and personality that she brought with her. It was because Anzu had that kind of dedication, diligence, loyalty, kind-heartedness, creativity, talent, trauma, and desperation for a revolution, just as much as Trickstar did, that she was able to become a capable producer who helped all the idols rise to the top. When I see EnStars OC producers meant to "replace" Anzu, I usually close my eyes hahaha I just can't imagine anyone else in her place, I feel like they don't understand how she ended up there and why she's perfect as the original transfer student and producer.
But I think it's also important to know where I came from before this. You see, I've always known of EnStars and just peeked at it everyone now and then, but I didn't really jump into it until 2020-2021. Around that time, I was into "My Next Life as a Villainess" or hamefura :DD It was one of my main starting points into getting into otome isekai mangas / rofan manhwas you see! One of the most mind-blowing parts when I first got into the manga and novel was Maria Campbell's backstory. The fact that she, someone who I and Katarina alike just knew as a kind and sweet protagonist of the otome game, was actually someone with a deeper backstory that givesan explanation to their personality and mindset. Maria becomes more than just a "otome game protagonist" and becomes her own person in the eyes of the readers, and eventually Katarina herself. It wasn't a new concept, protagonists who have a full backstory isn't something hamefura invented or anything, but the way it was presented was so good. The way the story makes you feel comfortable through Katarina's persepective to just see Maria as a kind, sweet and talented heroine to be wary of, before unpeeling the layers and shows that she's way more than that, made me feel things. I think I felt something similar when I learned more of Anzu's story too, and I feel like maybe I wouldn't be so crazy about Anzu if I didn't consume that type of media first, where characters (usually a villainess or supporting character FL) see a "heroine" as more than just what their titles makes you expect from them (whether it'd be good or bad parts of their personality and story).
Anzu became way more than just a "self-insert protagonist" and is a full character independent of the player, whom I want to support just as much if not more than the playable characters in the game.
Man, I know I haven't written enough and there's still much I can say in terms of EnGirls x EnStars content, and I didn't even go deep into her CHARACTER ARCS!!! and individual RELATIONSHIPS WITH THE IDOLS!!! and more of her CHARACTER QUIRKS!!! AND HER FAMILY???? I mean there's still time until her birthday, maybe I can articulate my thoughts properly by then? Maybe you can ask me the same question after like 3-4 months and I can give you a better answer once I group my thoughts better and add everything I forgot :DDDD Hope this is good enough for now (>.<)
Hi, same anon who asked for the mmd thing. THANK YOU I don't know how I didn't figure that out sooner huhuhu T_T I'm really new to MMD as well so I'm too shy to post them but thanks for your help that I can have a little fun with it noww <333333333333333333333333333
Awesome! Hope you have fun making MMDS :DD!!! please don't be shy about posting them, I'm not too proud of mine either but any anzu mmd is an amazing one!! i'll happily watch it even if it's just a model with a motion and camera with no shading or effects (TwT)/
Helloo! I watch your mmd vids (theyre so cute hehe) and i wanted to do my own too but i can't seem to download the anzu model you used because the password is wrong, did I write it wrong or something? what did u put to access it ;-; thanks in advance!!!!!
hello hello :DD!! I'm happy you like them! AWWWW I'M HAPPY TO HEAR THAT YOU'RE ALSO INTERESTED IN MAKING ANZU MMDS (つ╥﹏╥)つ
For the password of the Uniform Anzu model, I don't want to just write it here since it'd be against the modeler's TOS, but it's really easy to get, you just need to search the quote (which is one of Subaru's main intro quote for the game? I think?) luckily just putting the quote on google is enough to show the full line :)) and then just put the missing word as the password ( ദ്ദി ˙ᗜ˙ )
The uniform models are the only one i've ever used so far, but the Trickstar V2 model has a different password, and the other ones require direct permission from the modeler to be added to the group that has the link to the password. I just checked and it looks like the ability to download chocofes, nightclub and presumably DF too have been disabled after they released them all publicly for some time a while back (which I feel bad for completely missing despite already having those models) and I don't know if it's a permanent thing (:‚‹」∠) Regardless, I hope you get the models and have making MMDs :DD I'm a complete novice myself but it'd be so fun to make some alongside other people ( ⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝)
What are your pronouns? (sorry if I missed it somewhere)
she/her ✧ദ്ദി( ˶^ᗜ^˶ ) but I can be called anything I don't really mind
Gurlllll those anzu corottos; theyre so cute i want them😭😭😭 wish enst would actually make official anzu merch bc the way i would throw money at them
Thank you!! Yeah I wish they made official anzu merch too I would also throw my money at them..... but well you know what they say you gotta be the change you want to see in the world (T▽T) so if I want anzu merch I gotta make them myself (would order fan merch of anzu too bc they do exist but oof the intl shipping prices ow ow) o(T◇T o)
Hallo hi! can I ask where u buy ur corottos from? :o i wanna make one for one of my ocs soon
ngl i just approached a bunch of random cn manufacturers and asked if they do thicker acrylics stands (;;w;;) which isn't too hard (it's all about the diligence), I personally think the hard part is finding one that has a low MOQ for your budget (minimum I can find personally is 50 pieces) (I don't mind ordering a ton of anzus because I can give them away or sell them if I'm desperate to get rid of stock since there's interest for anzu goods)
Hhhhhey sorry to bother you with dumb question, related to anzuweek2024, do I have to draw according to the day, like, for example on the 1st of October draw one picture on the same day, or can i draw now and upload according to the day and theme? I'm sorry i never enter [characters] week before...
hmmm i never really thought about it, but I think it's okay to draw them in advance! You can take it as a themes or a daily art or writing challenge :DD Heck even I plan on drawing some in advance just so that I don't accidentally miss a day (like last year huhu) >:)) lots of people tend to repost old works too if they have pieces that suit that day's theme, and a few people asked me to post the theme much earlier so they can plan or start their piece in advance! Feel free to draw at your own pace, whether it be advance or on the same day (^v^)
Hello, I really love your art on @anzu_week so much! Is it okay to use them as my profile picture? I'll credit you of course. But if you don't, then it's fine. I really love seeing Anzu in official style.. I really hope they could show us more Anzu in the official style. Thank you for always drawing her! I love her dearly.
Thank you for liking them :DD I feel like you might want to wait until anzu's unofficial birthday (october 8th) first since I plan to release the anzu week full illustrations with transparent backgrounds for her birthday on my tumblr (like I did last year!), but regardless, sure you can! I drew them /because/ i want people to have more official looking anzu illustrations ✧ദ്ദി( ˶^ᗜ^˶ ) (although I failed to make them actually look official.... haha..... sobs....) if you decide that you want to use any of the anzu week illustrations as your pfp now, please credit @anzu_week instead of @anzubowl, if that's alright :)))
Hello, I'm a foreign Anz fan producer. Do you have any thoughts of selling the recently uploaded Anz Korot as a product as well? (The sentence may not be smooth using a translator.)
Hello hello! Thank you for the interest! Sadly I made them for me and I don't know if I feel comfortable selling them overseas because they are imitations of official illustrations. I don't want to get in trouble with the fans (since many are strict to follow happy element's rules against tracing or imitations) (T^T)
Although last year, I did also have some corottos made and sold my extras, but only locally (>.<) and some people already reserved some of the corottos I had made recently so I already have a few people to distribute them to. I'll think about it, since I want to keep all of them until anzu's unofficial birthday (october 8th) at the very least! Maybe if I receive more inquiries from interested buyers?
Thank you so much Mr./Ms. foreign Anzu fan for your interest!!! ദ്ദി( ╥ ᴗ ╥)
Hello! Thank you so much for always responding to questions so thoroughly. This is unimportant, but are you planning to switch sites (since retrospring is shutting down)? Maybe something like strawpage... (definitely not looking forward to send anonymous anzu doodles nope haha)
Well right now I'm kinda just holding onto retrospring even though I know it's shutting down because I really like the ui (;;w;;) although yeah I should probably make plans to move soon. If I do, it's probably going to be curiouscat since I'm not too familiar with strawpage. It does look really neat though :DD and I like that you can also send doodles besides just text. I may look into it since I'm getting somewhat curious now . >w>) (and oooooh thank you for /definitely not/ wanting to send me an anzu doodle in the hypothetical strawpage i would totally treasure it TwT)
Hii, since Anzu week is coming up, I wanted to ask if you have any story recommendations for inspirations? I'd like to participate but I haven't had the chance to get too deep into stories yet, so it's a little hard to come up with what I want to draw;; Thank you ^^
Hello! Happy to see someone who wants to participate in Anzu Week :DD and I'd love to help you in any way that I can! Although like what I always tell people, I always have a hard time recommending stories involving Anzu since she's spread across lots of stories >.> I feel bad for writing recommendations that might accidentally have biased content hagsdjhgsd
ES! Main Story (if you can find the novel, even better!!) and SS arc (Summer Live, Revenge Match, SS) is a must to see her starting points (and descent to overworking....) ! Anzu is also hilarious in the events where she produces big events like Tabanata Festival, Orihime and Hikoboshi, Sweet Halloween, Dark Night Halloween, Quarrel Festival (the only ones I can remember at the top of my head i'm so sorry). Aquarium, Boutique, First Shrine Visit, Hospital Visit, School Trip, Class Live, and EP:Link feel like must-reads too!
Reading stories involving Anzu and Kaoru /Madara's relationship feels important too since it's gives insight to into her as a person as well.
For Anzu's !! School life and Producer life, you should go read Spring Bed, Main Story 1.5s (Seven Bridges, High and Low, Black Jack, Poltergeist, Graduation), a bit of SS (Satellite, and all the Gatekeeper & Anzu bits in every story bc they are so funny + her importance to the idols), 2x2, Xday, Evil Telephone. Plus Feature Scouts too since she's involved in almost all of them
If it'll help, I also recommend reading @/trystofstar's amazing anzu doc for a fast overview of her character and ES! arc: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1EEzPBYf4vx6q0J-US8EHJkPECSQQUsaemz-xjIBb69Y/edit?usp=sharing
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but since I know not a lot of people look at my retrospring, you can have this as a preview for a thing I've been working on: it's a story breakdown based on anzu's activities in each story! Right now it only has EnGirls and a simple guide for ES stories (but just bolds for recs or categorizations) since that part is still under construction in a separate doc, but I hope it helps! I'm planning to make the EnGirls part public once the Paradise 10th Anniversary arrives, but it has a bit of EnStars too so it might help (and some shipping guides too) (but also I may actually delete the EnStars part in the future if I feel like not including anything from those stories until all the breakdowns are complete) : https://docs.google.com/document/d/1XG6YQ0zgq7FY9wpm5OLrQYJ3LpM5oVy_Y97JNcbOzGc/edit?usp=sharing
(haha but don't share it around please it's still incomplete so it'd be embarrassing)
hi dont mind the haters they r mean n bad
hehehe thank you, i know they aren't worth entertaining and shouldn't let them get to my head, i kinda expected that I'd eventually get sent stuff like that since I like anzu (a character that people either like, hate, or flat out ignore) so I like to think I've already mentally prepare myself for anything they say since the day I made my account ^_^ (and is ready to ignore them because nothing they say will make me like anzu any less)
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