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sweet, sweet anon · 6d
Not a question just wanted to pop in and say that after reading your svsss fics and loving them so much I checked your profile to see if you’d written anything else, saw all the content for BSD, and decided to give it a try just so that I could understand to read more of your fics lmao. What have you done pookie? Now I’ve gotta read ALL of BSD and it’s your fault smh.
BAHAHA I am sorry not sorry for your conversion to bsd. good luck 🫡
sweet, sweet anon · 7d
sorry if this is a stupid question or ask. or. complaint almost? but in your fic “new plot quest: light of life” only sqq seems to actually be the only “ok” with taking the abortion, while others try to push into consideration of lbh’s feelings. e.g. that whole scene wherein mqf tells sqq about his pregnancy and the recent chapter wherein sqh tells him he shouldnt have aborted.
Both, and even more scenes, always encourage the pregnancy and or try to discourage the abortion by saying “he’s the emperor protagonist” and “he needs a heir.” it happens mutliple times. they either do that or make it seem positive and a good thing that sqq must have, rather than acknowledging sqq genuine fear and anxiety over the issue and. Listening.
im too scared to comment this on your fic so im sorry for asking anonymously and in whatt may be an offensive manner. english is not my first language, and i do know that i have the power as a reader to put down the fic anytime if it triggers me in any sort of way, but the suspense of it all and the way the scenes are turning out makes me. not good?
i just wanted to ask though if their first child lives or not. or does the abortion actually work and they can properly prepare for the baby with serious communication? or does this count as spoilers territory? im really sorry again.!!! you can ignore the ask if you want to.
it's ok!! I'll put the answer under here since it's a spoiler:
dual cultivating the same night sqq took the tea ended up nullifying it, which is why the system said he was back on track in the morning. the little baby will be born! they will also fix their communication issues, and address how sqq feels so pressured about it because of the heir issue. sqh was so adamant about him keeping it because 1, he was scared how lbh might react, and 2, he figured out what the quest was really about (but then started to doubt it because the system said he was following the protection objective even after trying to abort)
it's a very messy situation, but they will finally sit down and discuss things next chapter! I know miscommunication tropes are painful, but I promise things will work out soon ♡
sweet, sweet anon · 8d
i’m in your walls, pookie 🤩✌🏼
hello anonymous pookie. be careful of the rats in there 🐀
sweet, sweet anon · 22d
I'm that one who told you how KOKO looks in my head
Did you see the new bsd omake with Aya and Bram? I CAN'T UNSEE KOKO😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
MANGA SPOILERS--
YEAH I SAW!!! but you're right, she would've loved Bram 😭❤️
sweet, sweet anon · 2mo
why don't you follow anyone back on x/twitter? /nm /genq
the short version of the story is I was tired of seeing fandom/interpersonal drama on my feed all the time, and I was getting spammed by someone/many someones abt the people I was following. so I just unfollowed everyone. this acct is just for my fics now, and I do my socializing elsewhere.
sweet, sweet anon · 2mo
Nothing but Koko for me is actually Aya
Is just, since the name are both short?? and she has red hair my hair just turned Koko into Aya
I actually THOUGHT YOU USED HER AS DAZAI'S LITTLE CHILD UNTIL I SEARCHED FOR AYA AND REALIZED SHE WAS NOT LMAO😭 I ALSO THOUGHT AYA'S NAME WAS YOKO SO RELATING HER TO KOKO WAS JUST MAGIC ,LMAOOO
It's so clear it's been a while since I've read bsd
The difference is that koko's hair is more dark red like oda's one instead of that lightly pinkie Aya has ( is it like that in the manga?) And that Koko faces goes a little more squarer, just a liiitlee bit. And that she looks more human in my head instead of 2d, and uses ton of pretty cute dresses
this is so funny lmao
but yes, Koko has her daddy's hair! I'm sure if her and Aya met, they'd be friends! Aya could teach her all about being a paragon of justice or whatever lol
I love how Koko lives as rent-free in your minds as she does mine ❤️
sweet, sweet anon · 2mo
ouy should totally make poe a siren in atot- Gets shot 1028390 times
lmaooo he is not a siren, but he's a pirate all the same uwu
sweet, sweet anon · 2mo
Hey Kai! I loved your Sigskk series. The one with trans sigma? Do you ever plan on continuing it? I keep checking for updates, just wanted to know.
hi! I do plan on continuing it, but life keeps throwing curveballs at me and I haven't been able to write much, if at all. I hope to at least update it during sigskk week in July!
Stella | CEO of Fyozai Siblings · 2mo
OMG KAI! I hope you fall into the verzai rabbithole too. they're so fucking delicious wtf like you cant tell me they met in that stupidly small shipping container and dazai just...used words to make verlaine his puppet? nuh uh
HI!!!!
ohohoooo it reeks of dead dove. maybe that's why verlaine is hiding in the basement lmao
I'm not big on the underage part but I bet 18zai or even 22zai has tried a thing or two with him
sweet, sweet anon · 2mo
Hear me out on Dazai x Verline
I'm listening
sweet, sweet anon · 2mo
Aww
Him having a puppy crush on Oda is so funny hahaha
Contrary to Kouyou and Verlaine, I never hated or disliked yosano. I actually had a big simpathy for her. Having a suicidal loved one that keeps like that for years is not easy, it depresses her at the same time and tires her out because taking care of it is a big deal. She always tried her best even if sometimes she would just give up on him but at the same time no. And that's so relatable, she wants to try but at the same time she just ressignated that dazai's gonna die someday :(
I understand dazai too, he feels she doesn't deal with it well and that annoys him. But they loved each other still
Also, at what age was dazai abandonated by his mom and given to Mori? I suppose he was a baby, but was he a newborn or a few months old?
dazai has a thing for redheads, what can I say uwu (so do i)
yeah, yosano did the best she could. she learned to accept it, but had the hope that maybe chuuya could at least get through to him. she would get frustrated with him sometimes too, but ultimately she understood that he wasn't going to change. but she can't not love and care about him, and vice-versa.
he was a bitty baby! maybe a year old, but definitely younger than something mori wanted to deal with. his siblings helped raise him, which only ended up with them getting tired of him or frustrated, hence why he's only close with the half-siblings closer to his age (yosano, ranpo, ango)
sweet, sweet anon · 2mo
What other facts do you have about dazai as kazuko?? Also, when did he start to cover his eye? After Mori hurt him or before?? I also love how protective and possessive you made him towards yosano
Is just so cute and gorgeous. She loves him and did a lot for him, even if sometimes she didn't manage his situation very well (but can we blame her? She didn't had it easy :() he still loved her dearly :'). When ranpo told chuuya that if he wasn't mated with him dazai would've already tried to killed him because chuuya being close to her, and how he didn't like chuuya at first not only because is dazai and chuuya xd, but because chuuya was also the one who tied her to this loveless marriage, right? I was so "awwww" because it shows how dazai loves her. Despite not feeling very understanding by her or not feeling 100% involved in her life for the circumstances, he still hated anything that caused misery to her sister and was also possessive with her because she's his big sister who had taken care of him so many times and was the closer sibling to him, and that's so cutee
I also wanna ask, him not taking very well people close to her was because of jealousy? That others are taking her sister's attention from him?
I don't have many more than I said! Kazuko was very withdrawn, and the only reason he had oda and ango as friends was bc Ango brought oda over to study/dinner once and dazai got a puppy crush on him lmao but he kept to himself, and any time he would try to present masc, mori would snap. he was sent to a pysch ward when he was 13 after he tried to hang himself, and he hated every second of it. the dehumanization of being there gave him anxiety and trauma, which is why he panicked so badly when doc threatened to send him back there. (I projected on him for that lmao)
he started to cover his eye in gradeschool, when kids started to bully him, so around 10/11yo. he stole bandages from Mori's home medical kit and he'd always wear them. mori didn't seem to mind- not until he found out he stole the bandages. yosano was the one that bought him more.
he does love yosano, bc growing up, she was really the only one that went out of her way to associate with him. he appreciates everything she's done for him, even if he hates how she's gone about some other things.
he hated chuuya for the arranged marriage, yes, and because he's an alpha. it reminded him of mori and all the wives he went thru, and he didn't want anyone doing that to his sister. it's less jealousy and more a desire to protect her from chuuya being potentially toxic/abusive towards her. he's gone off on alphas that wanted to date her before bc of all that, too. his perception of marriage and alphas and marking is very skewed by how he was raised by mori in such a dysfunctional and disjointed family
sweet, sweet anon · 2mo
OMG I JUST MADE THAT QUESTION WHEN DAZAI WAS BLIND IN THAT EYE LMAO, I LITERALLY FORGOT FOR A SECOND😭😭
AND OOMG, there's so many stuff about Dazai's past life!! Didn't know my baby bear was bullied at all
As for the money, I was gonna say why didn't he ask yosano for it, she would definitely give him everything, but what you said about transphobia and pain makes sense. I must say, I think I skipped the titles that said the year of the story, because I thought it was a modern one UNTIL NOW
bad, bad fan 😔
you're good!!! lol
dazai didn't like asking for money either- he'd ask for train fare to visit her but that's about it. he wasn't the type to like handouts
lol it's ok!! it takes place in 1998-99, so still fairly modern I think (I was born in the early 90s so maybe I'm just biased to thinking it wasn't that long ago) but thats why they only had house phones and such
sweet, sweet anon · 2mo
OH OH, and why the golden eye and not the brown one? Is it because brown is more common?
yep! the gold one stood out too much, plus he was blind in it anyway, so covering it up was a win-win for him
sweet, sweet anon · 2mo
it wasn't until he was injured that he lost 100% vision in it.
Mori that son of a bitch😠
I see! I thought dazai had it covered because it changed its color after being injured. But it seems he didn't like it from the very start?? Ow dazai, such pretty eyes you have :(. So many people want to have that uniqueness in their eyes. Is there a reason behind his eye's insecurity? Yosano said he doesn't like what lies behind when chuuya asked her
Another silly question I've been thinking about ahajahakha, so dazai was trans and yosano was a doctor and a surgeon. And dazai hates his bubbies because he's a man and women are the one with bubbies. Why didn't yosano just, take them off for him?? Xd, or why didn't he go to a place where to take them off ahahh. You know, that surgery where you get the mass reduced or just get them all out
he never liked it, because people would always stare and he was bullied for it at school before he started to cover it up. he didn't like the attention it got, and he liked that people mostly just left him alone once he started wearing the bandages.
yosano isn't that kind of surgeon, unfortunately 😭 she's a trauma surgeon, not a cosmetic one, so even if she did do it, it would probably look pretty messy lmao but also 1) he didn't have the money 2) he didn't want to go thru all of that pain and recovery if he was just going to die anyway 3) it was the 90s, and there was a lot of transphobia in the first place, so even finding the correct surgeon was more effort than he was willing to expend