i forgot to add this aswell:
ive discovered so many new passions of mine, new labels i identify with, etc. who i am as a person is crucial to me, and before i thought that i was all of these different fictional characters, creatures, etc and i had all of these names, labels and pronouns, but even though i identified with all of these, i felt so empty ? nothing truly felt like me and thats probably why i hoarded all of these random, silly things that in real life youd probably get weird looks about it. i was really hoping something would just click with me but most of it didnt really. but it felt weird not to hoard them at the same time because all of those were the only things that i thought set me apart from people and gave me a personality, made me a person, an individual, made me someone (someone interesting, too) because i tried fitting in so hard with the rest of the people from the communities i was in that i didnt know who i really was as a person which i feel like is concerning because it went on since i was like 11-12 ? but anyways im really happy to have found myself
theres so much ive learnt and so much that has changed about me that its really hard to put all of it into this tiny box on this site but again, id adore questions because id love to talk about it.

hellooo ive not been on this site for like almost a year holy shit but i thought about doing an update just because i feel like its sort of necessary ? idk
ive been doing genuinely so well, best ive done in like years honestly and im really proud of myself. ive surrounded myself with some really amazing people over these months and its helped me become a better person. my mental health has gotten remarkably better aswell, which i think was one of the biggest changes ive made because if you know me you know it was. bad. really bad 😭 im not proud of myself for having gotten that bad with my mental health and going so many years without trying to do something about it and even though im mostly to blame about it getting so bad, i also think certain spaces and communities i involved myself in didnt help either. people saw that i had severe delusions (among other things but i feel like my delusions were what had me so bad) and most of them encouraged them and made me get worse, and even then, some people didnt encourage my delusions but i still got worse. either way didnt help me get better, but pulling away from those communities and engaging in the real world really helped and was basically life changing. honestly, at first i thought it was too late for me to get better but i disagree now, seeing how much ive managed to improved

im gonna be keeping my inbox open for almost any questions but please keep the questions friendly and stuff because im really not here to be arguing or whatever i just wanted to give an update on myself on how im doing
and also im not officially coming back either, i dont think ill ever officially come back for my own mental health and stuff