Emotionally and mentally, also my own ideals. With all kinds of relationships in life, I've struggled. At connecting from my end, struggled. Pushing myself to do things I don't like or feel comfortable with, avoid it. Pushing to go outside my comfort zone, anxiety right outside that door but that's normal I've realised.

The loops are trapdoors, not that I can't start making new ways, I've just had the old ones long enough that it's not easy to continuously stay onto building new paths forward. The old or negative ones still exist, just gotta put more attention towards the better ways