Well, it was an accumulation of things that progressively led me there. Empathy with wolves for being socially frowned upon when in reality they are a key piece in all ecosystems. Multiple dreams in which I saw myself covered in black fur. The fact that any animal feels like a different entity from me, even humans, but not wolves. The fact that I, naturally and unconsciously since I was little, have certain behaviors that curiously are very similar to those of wolves... I don't know, details.