I write. So much thoughts I have that I could label my feelings as "sadness", it's probably because I have so many things going on the same time that my head started to blow up if I let myself think about it, or either that nothing going on that I feel so empty.

Even with the closest ones we have, we need to know our boundaries. We need to set it out and they should know where to leave us behind with our thoughts. It's not like that communication isn't helping at all, "curhat" does work on most of people, it's nice to have a shoulder to cry on. I do talk to my 119 person, too, of course, and yet I still need to write down a few words or sentences (sometimes paragraphs) in order to get fully relieved. Not always about the current life crisis I face, I need to distract myself in most of terrible times sooo I do write about some joyful delusional script in my head just because it might help.