hehe aww !! i’ll go with its both of them trying to compete for Orel’s love, trying to win him over :3 !! When he’s with Clay, he goes into his study, expecting a beating, but instead gets pulled onto Clay’s lap on the chair, gently kissing him and telling him that it’s okay that he made a mistake and he doesn’t deserve to get beaten for his mistake. Orel just soaks in all the praise and kisses from his dad, loving that for once he’s being nice to him. On their next date, Orel tells Joe about how his dad treated him, talking dreamily about how he felt so nice and cozy sitting with him, which makes Joe extremely jealous!!! In his head, Joe is saying how he can do better than that, so he pays fully for their food, even after Orel insisted they split the check, and takes him to the park, sitting on a log together, Joe cuddles Orel and kisses him, he wraps his hand around his waist and pulls him closer, giving him more kisses on his cheek. Orel assumes (from the secluded area of the park and being pulled so close to Joe) that Joe wants to have sex with him, even though he really didn’t want to, and just wanted to spend time with Joe, so he moves the hand closest to Joe to his groin, trying to feel Joe’s dick. “Ah- Ah~ I just wanna hold you, dummy,” Joe smiles as Orel places his hand back onto the log for support. Orel is blushing a lot more, knowing that Joe isn’t going to fuck him and is just going to shower him with love in other ways. — When Orel gets home, Clay asks him why he was out so late, and Orel tells his dad about what happened, so excited about it. Clay wasn’t too happy and so he took Orel to the study, which Orel was guessing that he was going to get beaten. But Clay never undid his belt. He just pulled or onto the chair again onto his lap. He started cuddling Orel and praising him, trying to one-up Joe on the cuddles. He tried desperately to think of other ways he could show Orel his love, never quite learning how to show love. He awkwardly asked him about his Bible figurines, knowing it was something he was passionate about, Orel’s face lit up even more at the allowance to talk about his collection. It felt like hours of Clay nodding and pretending to understand everything his boy was ranting about. Orel was just so happy with being able to talk about his Bible Figurines, especially to Clay who never seemed to take an interest in anything of his!!! — After school Doughy, Tommy, Joe, and the rest were hanging out, Joe and Orel being all close with eachother, Orel was also bragging about how his Dad was interested in his Bible figurines, Doughy pointing out “Isn’t he the one who bought them all for you? Shouldn’t he already KNOW about them?” And Joe seeing this as an opportunity encouraged this, “Yeah, but that dummy was probably too drunk to remember! He’s probably just asking to see how much money he could’ve spent on more booze instead of your figures. That’s all your Dad even cares about.” He rolls his eyes with it. Orel seems genuinely hurt by this, “Y-You mean… No! My Dad does care! He was being so nice to me, he didn’t even beat me!” Orel quickly shakes it off, not wanting to think about how his dad could be using him (he really wasn’t). “Y’know, Orel I do really care about you, and you know I don’t want your dad to be taking advantage of you again..” Joe says in a whisper to Orel, not wanting the others to hear. Orel smiles slightly, “Thanks, Joe.. But.. I’m fine! I can handle myself this time if anything happens again! Everything will be fine!”

It came after literal years of harassment and lost friends tbh. I’m glad it all happened because I don’t have to hide my true self from my friends. My real friends understand what I do. They don’t have to agree with it necessarily but they just tolerate it, cus it’s something that helps me and makes me really happy. I remember getting harassed and canceled by my ‘friends’ for uploading a piece of my persona Henry that was (to them) ‘glorifying abuse’ the piece was a fetish piece about masochism, and was just a fantasy of his (and by extension, mine). I remember an adult trying to dig it up after I deleted it just to have some dirt on me. Said adult used to be someone I considered a friend. I used to be in such an anti space (wings of fire discord server) and god I was miserable. Sure I was happy sometimes but when the management changed it was a whole shit show and I also got banned for being ‘transphobic’ (I do not like fake trans people who are just doing it for an aesthetic. Being trans is something I hate about myself and I wish I was normal.) you couldn’t have any differing opinion there so when I started being proship I felt so unsafe there. So many people blacklisted for feral porn and fictional pedophilia. That server I had been in since like 2020 where it had other drama, it was a terrible place tbh. I’m glad it’s gone now. Sorry I got like so side tracked there — but me being proship is something all of my actual friends know about, I am in an anti space still with one server but I’m rarely active there and it’s not like being proship comes up often, it came up once and I left the chat for a bit because it was uncomfortable for me. It takes so many years to be completely comfortable with being proship, especially if you were in proship denial (like I was). I’m sure everything will be okay one day though, it just takes a long time.