It came after literal years of harassment and lost friends tbh. I’m glad it all happened because I don’t have to hide my true self from my friends. My real friends understand what I do. They don’t have to agree with it necessarily but they just tolerate it, cus it’s something that helps me and makes me really happy. I remember getting harassed and canceled by my ‘friends’ for uploading a piece of my persona Henry that was (to them) ‘glorifying abuse’ the piece was a fetish piece about masochism, and was just a fantasy of his (and by extension, mine). I remember an adult trying to dig it up after I deleted it just to have some dirt on me. Said adult used to be someone I considered a friend. I used to be in such an anti space (wings of fire discord server) and god I was miserable. Sure I was happy sometimes but when the management changed it was a whole shit show and I also got banned for being ‘transphobic’ (I do not like fake trans people who are just doing it for an aesthetic. Being trans is something I hate about myself and I wish I was normal.) you couldn’t have any differing opinion there so when I started being proship I felt so unsafe there. So many people blacklisted for feral porn and fictional pedophilia. That server I had been in since like 2020 where it had other drama, it was a terrible place tbh. I’m glad it’s gone now. Sorry I got like so side tracked there — but me being proship is something all of my actual friends know about, I am in an anti space still with one server but I’m rarely active there and it’s not like being proship comes up often, it came up once and I left the chat for a bit because it was uncomfortable for me. It takes so many years to be completely comfortable with being proship, especially if you were in proship denial (like I was). I’m sure everything will be okay one day though, it just takes a long time.