ok!! this is the point where I attack everyone i've known but i'm holding myself back so hard right now I cannot breathe. how do I express the insane rage I feel in this situation. I am trying! I'm trying to change, i'm listening, i'm doing what you want, and I am avoiding you, avoiding your chats, enduring your harmful messages and I have been getting through this with the help of my friends but then you decide 'oh I absolutely HAVE to take that away from them too!' WHO TOLD MY FRIEND THAT I DEFENDED A NONCON FIC, BECAUSE I DID NOT. I DID NOT DEFEND NONCON. I DO NOT CONDONE, SUPPORT OR DEFEND NONCON. THAT IS FUCKING DISGUSTING. WHOEVER IS TRYING TO TAKE AWAY THE ONLY PEOPLE I HAVE LEFT IN THIS WORLD, MY ONLY REASON FOR LIVING, YOU DID AN AMAZING JOB. My mental health is far enough down the drain and I bet you're getting a laugh out of this 'oh hee hee haha they're popping off they're a little angry boo hoo ur not the victim here'

i'm trying not to victimize myself here but atp ur just TRYING to make me one. I have left you alone. I have stuck to the areas that you're not, even if the areas where you stay are the ones I want to be in the most. I have outed myself on more than one platform. I have apologized. I have said sorry, but I haven't gotten any apologies for persistently being called a "child liker" or "noncon defender" or "freak". I'm done apologising atp. I have done what I need to do to at least be heard, and the people who are milking this , you're the problem now.

i'm done being the problem. I want to get better. I am sorry to those who i've hurt. I'm sorry for traumatizing you. I'm sorry for everything. I just want everything to stop and go back to normal. I want to stop having to tiptoe my way around servers, worried i'll find a victim and have to leave. I'm tired of being called a freak and a pedo and weird.

again! not victimizing myself here.
just trying to get this out. stop sending me things saying stuff like i'm a freak or a child liker or noncon defender.
retrospring is shutting down on March 1st. I may bring back my curious cat if anyone else wants to contact me.
other than that, my discord is still broomalcro, and my main twt acc is still cascti_.

have a good time zone and sleep well