ok!! this is the point where I attack everyone i've known but i'm holding myself back so hard right now I cannot breathe. how do I express the insane rage I feel in this situation. I am trying! I'm trying to change, i'm listening, i'm doing what you want, and I am avoiding you, avoiding your chats, enduring your harmful messages and I have been getting through this with the help of my friends but then you decide 'oh I absolutely HAVE to take that away from them too!' WHO TOLD MY FRIEND THAT I DEFENDED A NONCON FIC, BECAUSE I DID NOT. I DID NOT DEFEND NONCON. I DO NOT CONDONE, SUPPORT OR DEFEND NONCON. THAT IS FUCKING DISGUSTING. WHOEVER IS TRYING TO TAKE AWAY THE ONLY PEOPLE I HAVE LEFT IN THIS WORLD, MY ONLY REASON FOR LIVING, YOU DID AN AMAZING JOB. My mental health is far enough down the drain and I bet you're getting a laugh out of this 'oh hee hee haha they're popping off they're a little angry boo hoo ur not the victim here'

i'm trying not to victimize myself here but atp ur just TRYING to make me one. I have left you alone. I have stuck to the areas that you're not, even if the areas where you stay are the ones I want to be in the most. I have outed myself on more than one platform. I have apologized. I have said sorry, but I haven't gotten any apologies for persistently being called a "child liker" or "noncon defender" or "freak". I'm done apologising atp. I have done what I need to do to at least be heard, and the people who are milking this , you're the problem now.

i'm done being the problem. I want to get better. I am sorry to those who i've hurt. I'm sorry for traumatizing you. I'm sorry for everything. I just want everything to stop and go back to normal. I want to stop having to tiptoe my way around servers, worried i'll find a victim and have to leave. I'm tired of being called a freak and a pedo and weird.

again! not victimizing myself here.
just trying to get this out. stop sending me things saying stuff like i'm a freak or a child liker or noncon defender.
retrospring is shutting down on March 1st. I may bring back my curious cat if anyone else wants to contact me.
other than that, my discord is still broomalcro, and my main twt acc is still cascti_.

have a good time zone and sleep well

ok!! Ill be stepping back from this website for a while as well.

I've talked to my counselor and a few other friends about how i'm handling the situation, and they say i'm doing it right. the people who are instigating and re-bringing shit up, you're in the wrong. I'm doing what unicro wants me to do and staying off Twitter, The person I platonically 'married' and I are talking like normal again, I don't know what's happening with the two I shipped together, but we aren't talking, I'm avoiding them, I'm trying to let everyone heal. I am in the right. I'm doing the right thing. stop bringing shit up. let my victims heal. let ME heal. i'm going through too much to deal with anyy more people saying shit like "oh, you like children!!!" correction, I like TAKING CARE of children, I would never date one, that would be disgusting.
"you like noncon!!" correction + explanation, I DONT like noncon, I grew up in terrible servers like UwU, where I was sent things that an 11 year old shouldn't have been seeing, and I was influenced to think that the way broomer kissed micro in that fic was ok, so I have a hard time identifying when something is noncon!!
"you're a freak/your friends are freaks for supporting you even after what you did!!" ok? block and move on, its not fucking hurting you. my friends aren't talking to you. they don't support what I did, and they know everyone makes fucking mistakes. they know how much the guilt of what I did has been EATING AWAY AT ME, the nights I spend up, thinking about how I wish I didn't do it, how I wish everything could fucking go back to normal.
"you like eee smut!" correction, GHOST MADE THAT SMUT WITHOUT ME ASKING FOR IT. I HAVE BEEN BEING HARRASSED BY HER FOR OVER 3 MONTHS. SHE WILL NOT LEAVE ME ALONE. SHE WAS CONSTANTLY STALKING ME, JOINING EVERY SERVER SHE THOUGHT ME TO BE IN. CALLING ME PET NAMES THAT I HAVE NEVER BEEN COMFORTABLE WITH, AND HAVE TOLD HER THAT I DONT LIKE. I HATE HATE HATE SMUT, I HATE GHOST, PLEASE NEVER ASSOCIATE ME WITH HER EVER AGAIN. I DELETED THAT ACCUSATION SO FAST, BECAUSE HOW DENSE DO YOU HAVE TO FUCKING BE TO SEE THAT I WAS THE ONE BEING HURT BY HER.

so! to summarize, I will be stepping down from this platform for a considerable amount of time!! I'm not a pedo, I'm listening to my victims, I am doing the right thing, and I don't condone the smut ghost made!

Go ahead and ask whatever other questions you have, and I will answer them when I get back ^_^ Any asks that bring this shit up (without reason other than to call me a freak) again will be deleted and not answered, unless I feel the need to truly answer it.

Have a good time zone!