Sillies · 6mo
/sh and ed
im sorry 😭🫶 the second ask was set post first ask after theyve been dating for a bit.. i probably should've clarified
i like to imagine t0ny not processing that s4p is cutting himself at first because s4pn4p passes off the lines as mi1o being too rough during playtime and of course t0ny sees how hyperactive he can be and just tells s4pn4p to be more careful next time. he gets increasingly more worried the more glimpses of lines he sees during the moments where s4pn4p feels comfortable taking off his clothes but he tells himself that he's exaggerating. it's until one night where t0ny comes home late because he was spending time with his family and s4pn4p stayed home where he catches s4pn4p in the act because he was too drunk and sobbing too hard to remember to lock the door. t0ny gasps and takes the switchblade out of his hand and s4pn4p only whimpers while t0ny frowns and gently guides him into the bathroom. hes hiccupping apologizes between choked sobs and t0ny pets him gently, repeating that they'll get through this because they always do.. although t0ny is hurt that s4pn4p didn't like he could trust him enough to tell him that he's cutting himself.
s4pn4p doesnt remember the previous night and t0ny probably thinks its for the best. he enjoys the few minutes of normalcy, holding s4pn4p in his arms in bed until s4pn4p tumbles out of bed to throw up. he sighs and soon joins his boyfriend, rubbing his back while he rests his head on the toilet seat. he then makes s4pn4p sit on the sink counter while he gets fresh bandages for s4ps cuts. theyre both quiet until t0ny pulls the bandages off sucking his teeth at how deep last night's cuts were.. thankfully not deep enough for medical attention but too deep for t0ny's liking regardless. "im sorry" s4pn4p mumbles and t0ny sighs which makes s4pn4p deflate. "were you ever going to tell me, n1ck?" and its quiet for a minute before s4pn4p replies back "no" which saddens t0ny more. he doesn't know why s4pn4p doesnt feel like he can trust him.. first the purging and now this? the rest of the day is awkward. s4pn4p locks himself in his office while t0ny bsbyproofs the apartment to distract himself. its so rough for the both of them but they'll manage.. or at least t0ny hopes they will.. he truly loves s4pn4p but if the younger can't trust him.. does he truly love him back?
he's just overthinking...
s4pn4p doesn't get used to t0ny constantly following him, especially the nights where s4pn4p tries a meal outside his safe options, he snaps at the older male and pushes him away if t0ny's too close.. t0ny knows its a defense mechanism but it hurts a little.. especially after the drinking incident (neither likes to talk about that night) t0ny comes to terms thst he needs to set aside his feelings, he should be focusing on s4pn4p, not being sad that n1ck is fighting him.
any progress os celebrated, s4p goes two days without feeling nauseous after eating? t0ny praises him and surprises him with matching chain necklaces after stream. s4pn4p goes a week without body checking himself and doing his affirmations without fighting t0ny? he buys s4pn4p a new hat and a big hoodie to wear on his low days. s4pn4p beams whenever t0ny buys him rewards, if he was a puppy he's sure hed see s4pn4ps tail wagging. for three weeks t0ny takes s4pn4p to a restaurant where he knows s4pn4ps safe foods are served, he's nervous and t0ny feels a little bad jumping the gun that fast but s4pn4p tells him when they get back to the car that he had a good time.. they kiss and eventually move to the backseat where s4pn4p sucks him off for treating him so well, its messy because theyre in a truck in a fucking parking lot but they both giggle afterwards while t0ny helps straighten s4pn4p back up.
oouhh i love the date idea. theyre so cutesy.. t0ny surprises him with flowers and s4ps so shocked because he doesn't remember seeing t0ny pick them up and t0ny turns red and sheepishly admits he forced s4p to drive his own car to their date so he could pick the flowers up secretly. s4pn4p calls him stupid and kisses him over the table. also the sex part 😵💫 i love the power imbalance part you should elaborate on that more 🤭 i love love s4pn4p being the 'boss' but being submissive to t0ny bc t0ny is so much bigger than him and in more ways than one. t0ny definitely makes fun of him in bed for having a size kink but does nothing to not help fuel it especially in the bedroom when he's wrapping his massive hands around s4pn4ps throat and using his big hands to guide him while s4pn4p rides his cock. he doesnt help outside the bedroom either when t0ny 'accidentally' traps him between counters and engulfs him in his arms randomly -🐈⬛ //ps dont worry i understand the burnout, dont feel pressured to reply if you're not able :]
// sh , ed
TBH THATS MY BAD im like illiterate or somethin...
OHH I like that, I feel t0ny would be dismissive almost. 'S4pn4p wouldnt do that, hes stronger than that..right?' And everytime he'd get a glimpse IT HAD to be mil0. Not only that but why would S4pn4p, n1ck, lie to him. His heart already can't handle all S4pn4p hasn't told him. And when the truth is found, t0ny can only shakily take care of his love. Heart shattered as he wipes it away hastily and holds him, babbling nonsense and sorry's that he never should have had to say. T0ny runs his fingers through messy hair and whispers I Love You over and over. They've gone through this before, they can persevere..right? T0ny hates how he questions everything. Questions commitments, how strong they are, and n1cks love. Will they really get through it? S4pn4p falls asleep fast in t0nys warm arms, protected by any 'evils' because t0nys shielding. The next morning was rough because although S4pn4p didnt remember it all the way, he wasn't dumb. He knew that t0ny knew, he liked that t0ny did not pity him. T0ny looked at him like a sad puppy but with a fondess no one else ever has. No one has ever been so gentle and Truly caring. The soft kisses t0ny leaves over the bandages, the soft smile of reassurance. For all the bad t0ny is the little good left. The reason to try.
Things are never the same, s4p sees t0nys care but it's overwhelming! Can't a man piss in peace! It was somewhat sweet but s4p isnt used to such attention and care. He feels bad when he snaps at t0ny but it cant be helped, he feels like hes being underestimated. He likes to think he cant handle eating foods that arent his usual comfort meals. S4pn4p doesnt need t0nys eyes watching his every move and bite. To track him to the bathroom in case he purges, he doesnt need t0ny to feed him and chew it up. He doesn't obviously but its practically like he does. They both experience the roughest patch of their relationship during this. Heavy distrust and hurt all around. But t0ny realizes for them both to heal, s4p needs to recover first. So he chills slightly, and they both appreciate it. T0ny starts to reach for s4ps hand when he gets too into his head, they whisper affirmations together even when others are around. Theyre each others entire WORLD! It makes s4p feel so bubbly when t0ny rewards him, he gets treats and sometimes feels like a dog when hes handed something shiny and expensive. T0ny loves it though, loves his lil pup and getting to help him everyday along the way. Theyre both shocked when one day s4p sends some lowkey thirst traps to t0ny whilst the other it out. They don't fully go into it but ease back into intimacy, especially with their date!!! Eee!!! S4p had never felt safer or happier especially with t0ny there, he twiddled his chain with a bashful smile. Truly feeling like it was their 1st one all over, the flowers being the cherry on top to this wonderful date. Im such a SUCKER FOR CAR SEX!!! s4p blowing t0ny as his reward for being such a loving and caring partner!! S4p makes it a constant thing now everytime they go out, to either blow him, or play with his happy trail as he gives him a real gentle but firm handjob. The very few times s4p has control just cause t0ny is so giggly and happy. I feel as a treat sometimes t0ny gives s4p a nice hickey to show off on his new proud body. To get him to love himself in a slight guilty way 'you cant hate places that ive marked can you?' Its always light hearted but it touches s4p badly, makes him warm and squirmy because so true! T0ny is good, perfect, he has to appreciate AND show off all parts t0ny is also! Theyre so cute THEYRE SO CUTE, s4p rarely has bad days now, but t0ny is always holding some part of s4p. Always there to bring him back and remind him of all his lovely parts, kiss his hands and shoulders in public, then worship all of him in private. Theyre ridiculously horny, s4p and t0ny Both get off to the idea heavily that s4p is t0nys boss but such a bottom bitch for him. Letting t0ny treat just about however, even letting him feed him and wipe his face. S4p trusts him so much to give all of himself up, when t0ny traps him as a joke it always ends with s4p bent over the counter and fucked outta his mind. Or better yet dragged to a mirror to fuck, forcing s4p to watch himself and adore himself. S4p has never been able to give himself up like this, especially to such a big man who can manhandle him in every way possible. OOOOHHHHHHGGGFG choking. S4p and choking is so good, t0ny loves how tiny he is, the way he could snap if t0ny just pressed a little more. He feels like a sex doll, t0ny bouncing him, himself, when s4ps legs give out. Or flipping them so fast it gives s4p whiplash as t0ny whispers praises into scars and stretchmarks to show s4p his love. T0ny Will always touch s4p when he can hence always englufing him in hugs and pretending to collapse on him and being proud when s4ps working out actually does something against t0ny. He likes to see his hand cover s4ps muscled thighs and cover most of it, loves to challenge his boss and watch his submissive state take over. He really loves him and s4p the same!! T0NYNAP MY LOVES !!!!! (actually sorry as fuck I think abt all the asks u say all the time and usually I start a response but finish it decades later 😭 i love ur asks always tho!!!)
