hooo boy... it's really hard for me to think of anything from those years in a happy light. a lot of it was objectively unpleasant or painful, and even more of it has been retroactively ruined by embarrassment/shame or my relationship to certain people changing for the worse after the fact. another complicating factor is that, due to ptsd brain, I have very few complete memories from that time in my life

I think my favourite memory is probably from when I was in like grade 9, and I went to a friend's house for a shindig with a few pals. it was really pleasant, we sang songs together and watched movies, and we laid on our backs in the street near her house (she lived at the end of a cul-de-sac, so there was very little traffic), and stuff like that. we had a few get-togethers like that over the years and they were a lot of fun. I liked that friend group a lot, and she had a basement that we could have all to ourselves. so I'm kinda blending together the memories of all the different times we hung out there