I've been feeling like shit for months. Everything is fine in my life but my brain is trying to being up memories for the past memories I don't even know are real because I was drunk or drugged at the time to show me how much of a shitty person I am. It's getting so bad that I have thought of ended my life or least self harming again. It's driving me absolutely nuts and I hate it I don't want to be this person these memories are showing me. I want life to be beautiful and peaceful and it is but my brain always wants to think about negative things am absolutely going insane.