Egg stealer · 16d
It's not selfish, sushi, but it can cloud your vision, there are people trying to reach out and help because they care about you, you accidentally push them away and it's true that it might not be what you want, because that people CAN'T be what you want them to be. they're different people. And no one can fill the void another person leaves, but they can patch it, take care of it until it heals, reinforce your heart so it doesn't hurt as much. I know you feel bad now, but I promise these people do care, and I can promise you they'll make sure you'll be okay. It's gonna be okay, but you have to accept that it's going to be different
But what if i cant get over it or them. They influenced me so much in such little time and now they're just gone. They meant the absolute world to me. They're the ones that completely let me come out of my shell. Ive done things ive never could have done myself because of them. and now whenever they show up anywhere i just get filled with so much sadness or hatred. And I keep fucking up. I cant keep any of my friends. It'll just happen again. It'll just repeat. Im like a wound that keeps rejecting the treatment its given. These people meant so much to me. No one could ever replace those holes in my heart.
