(not the same anonymous as last one) Hate making this about myself and you probably don't wanna hear this from me cuz we've never been too close so i may fall under the "bare minimun friend" category but i feel like i kind of get you, it's really tiring being the "hey no one i actually do stuff with is online so i'd thought id send you a tweet to react to even though i know you want more ok lol bye see you in 7 months" friend, and seeing someone who you never had a deep bond with act like they're trying oh so hard to be your friend yet keep their anonymous mask up so you don't even know who they are must be really annoying and that is NOT what you need right now

I know it seems like you can't, it might stay like that for a long time, but i promise you will. people come and go, yeah. but as quick as they came into your life and changed it, others may. Sometimes things just don't work out. You loved those people and loved the effect they had on you, but you also have to admit being close to them had started to take a toll on you, you have to learn when to cut ties or back off a bit... I know this all seems like.. pure loss, like there's nothing good about this, and I'm getting really tired of acting like I know how you feel so please take everything I say like just one person's opinion. But, I feel like that experience did something good for you, it let you know that you CAN get out of your shell, you CAN do these things with people you want to do. It might be hard to find a new place to feel as comfortable as you did but I know you'll find it, and your current friends.. well, yeah. maybe they're not the same or what you're currently looking for, but do they have to be? they can support you until you find that. If you try to force it maybe that'll just lead to disappointment...No one is going to pretend to be the cure to your problems, no one SHOULD. But they can make you feel a little better, if you let them.. Those people you used to love oh so much, maybe one day you'll be able to face them again, and not see them with sadness or hatred, but just as.. other people.. strangers..

It's not selfish, sushi, but it can cloud your vision, there are people trying to reach out and help because they care about you, you accidentally push them away and it's true that it might not be what you want, because that people CAN'T be what you want them to be. they're different people. And no one can fill the void another person leaves, but they can patch it, take care of it until it heals, reinforce your heart so it doesn't hurt as much. I know you feel bad now, but I promise these people do care, and I can promise you they'll make sure you'll be okay. It's gonna be okay, but you have to accept that it's going to be different