Retrospring is shutting down on 1st March, 2025 Read more
512
hi jay! what are the questions people ask you the most often so i can avoid asking them?
what txt ships do you like???
noooo why did chenle have the goal to ruin his hair again 😭it finally looked like he’d recovered from the horror of 2020 bald patches and it was looking so pretty. he’s too funny and precious i love that he’s so honest all the time
THAT'S WHY I SAID WE NEED TO FUND HIS OLAPLEX.... tbh this year i really loved all the colours he did esp when they were professionally styled, but unfortunately he's so set on this shenanigans. i know he said it was his goal to destroy his hair but i really hope next year he lets his scalp breathe, bc i think he looks so shuai with his black hair
Hello jay! Hope you are doing well. I just wanted to ask you about your writing process. I've been trying to get back into writing after taking a break for a few years but I feel like I'm stuck :/
What do you usually do when things aren't moving forward? Have a nice day :)
my writing process is really oddly organised and i think it's quite different from most writers so this might not help you 😭 i outline basically all of my fics so i'll usually look at my outline and try rearranging certain scenes to see if that makes the fic flow better. somtimes i just delete the scene i was working on entirely and rewrite it, to see if the words will flow better a second time around. i think it's also helpful to switch between wips every now and then so you're not exhausting yourself on the same ideas again and again. don't force yourself!
chenle looks like a brats doll in his recent pics where hes falling off the couch… sayrrrrr pretty i love him so much
hi jay i just read the answer to the femme jenle question and i just wanted to hop in and say that it's fine if u don't feel qualified to write fem fics but that as a lesbian woman i still love your femdream fics sosososo much and i would love to keep reading them 💕 you don't have to experience something firsthand in order to write about it, your fics are still amazing
hi jay! would you ever write or have thought about femme jenle?
your jaemle destroyed me more than any other of your fics. more than most fics. it’s so different from anything i’ve read from you i’m at a loss for words. i’ve read a lot of fics with this premise but never one quite so bleak and painful and frustrating in the most beautiful way. it should be so simple and easy this thing between them but it very much isn’t. just wow. if it’s not too bold of me to say i genuinely feel like your writing has leveled up with this one and this is some of your best chenle characterization.
i had two questions if you don’t mind: would you ever reveal what eventually happens to them, assuming obviously there are no plans for a sequel since the open ending tag, and do you think you would have written it so like helpless if it was another chenle ship? i ask because it really felt so impossible despite the reveal and the holding back felt so innate to jaemle and a running theme i sense in their fics despite how especially affectionate jaemin is to chenle irl. i don’t know. like with another chenle ship and this same plot obviously it’d be different because it’d be a different relationship but i feel like this exact same fic with mark or jn for example wouldn’t feel quite so impossible or bleak. for how silly jaemle is there’s something so hard to reach about them.
anyway thank you so much for posting it. i will be thinking about it for a very long time. you’re seriously an amazing writer.
wow this is a really great ask 🥺 saying my writing has levelled up is genuinely such a crazy compliment it means so much to me. i feel like i struggle to write sadder, angstier fics more than any other genre, and it's something i've been working really hard to improve on. i think i get better with every fic that i write, but i'm not usually happy or satisfied with what i post... the fact that you think this is one of my best chenles means that all the practice and all the writing i do is paying off :')
as for your questions, i want to put this out there first: when i write fics, i very rarely thing of sequel stories/what happens after largely because i get more satisfaction reaching a contained conclusion within the realm of the story than i do reaching a conclusion for the individual characters, if that makes sense. if we're getting specific to veiling glare, the reason i didn't write jaemle becoming a couple is because the story was ultimately exploring what singular isolated night feels like when you take care of someone you love. in the fic's "tomorrow", jaemin's still going to be in love with chenle, and chenle's still going to be in the closet, because that's just who they are. the story doesn't necessarily ask them to be anything more than two girls that like each other a little too much. neither jaemin nor chenle's actions or thought processes predicate on a need to be with the other. jaemin has already come to terms with her feelings, and chenle needs to reckon with her sexuality before she considers how she feels for jaemin. and both those facets are explored, therefore the fic is concluded to me
now that aside, after reading your ask, i did give it some thought while spinning around in my desk chair, so here's that. what happens to them after this...hmm. what i can say with confidence is that jaemin never says anything, and donghyuck doesn't rat either. if i were to write a second chapter, i would say chenle has sex with another girl just to test her sexuality, realises she's thinking about jaemin the entire time, and that's how all the puzzle pieces properly click into place in chenle's head. chenle tags along with jaemin to a gay club (she poses it as straight girl wants to go to lesbian club so she doesn't get harassed by men), and she sees jaemin coming onto another girl, so she tries to intervene. at the club, they make out, then jaemin stops them entirely, and brings them back to their apartment. maybe they have sex, or maybe they keep making out, i'm torn on that. but they wake up and jaemin immediately regrets it. when jaemin tries to shut chenle out in a reversal, chenle gets pissed. they argue about it at some point. and what happens after, i really really really don't know, you can make a happy ending for them if you want lol
this fic was originally based on a drabble where someone else picked the ship, so i didn't exactly consider what they would be like in different pairings. however, the nature of jaemin and chenle within the fic itself are quite...volatile. like jaemin hated her "relationship" with donghyuck and she fumbled that first date with jeno, because jaemin within the story is self destructive and self sacrificing as a result of her one-sided feelings. i think (meta) jaemin will always be a little self destructive and self sacrificing tho. and with chenle in the fic, she's almost too secure in who she is that the threat of her fluid sexuality against her personality makes her shut down and reject that, which i think is true to chenle and all the chenles i write. chenle is confident and self assured, so when something challenges his own perception of himself he can bite back pretty harshly about it (just think of all the times a dreamie has mentioned x thing about chenle and he immediately denies it bc it's not in line with how he perceives himself). these aspects wouldn't change if this fic had been written with a different ship, so i don't necessarily think that jaemle made it extra tragic or doomed
that being said, chappell roan good luck babe aside, what really appeals to me about jaemle is how different they are. not necessarily in an opposites attract way, but the way they process and the way they understanding their emotions are so so different from each other, it makes the way they immediately clicked into the shenanigans they are now so much more fascinating to me. that aspect of at their core, chenle and jaemin are absolutely different in the way they express their emotions (chenle lays them all bare, with all their ugly edges, whereas jaemin prunes and picks and pretties them up so the person on the other end can't see the ugly parts) is so easy to bend into something sadder, heavier, and i've always wanted to write a messy jaemle fic. between all the chenle ships, i think jaemle and chenmark are the most fun to write truly messy for me.
this was a reaaaaallly long answer but i hope i satisfied some of your curiosity! thank you so much for this ask, and i'm glad you're thinking about them so deeply. cos now i'm also thinking about them very deeply wow. i hope i keep writing and keep improving :)
Jisung putting cream on Chenle’s nose is soooo cute 🥺 the way you can see in the background they’re bickering for a bit but Chenle still allows him to do it and then he smiles very very big ack 🥹 they’re so cute and playful our Chenji
manifesting ajayinthedark jihyuck slow burn angst internalized homophobia cuckoo bananas Fic…
not chenle's bicurious era becoming his binolongercurious era 😭 it's giving those gen x milfs who swear they're straight and then reveal that they're 'around 30% gay' and dated girls in college. at first i took his comment at face value but now i'm like eh, yeah, there's probably more to it than that
u have to eat cake. i feel like u need it
hi jay! how's chenle's birthday how have you been celebrating
Hey jay, hope you’re doing well on this lovely Chenle day. I just wondered if by any chance you know of a list or something of known dream sasaengs or just problematic fansites that are currently active?? just want to make sure I’m not supporting them and all I can find are lists of accounts that have been inactive for years.
Not expecting you to be some oracle of knowledge with this but I just wanted to check if you had any insight😊😊
ah okay i gotcha about the loser thing but i didn’t take it as offensive or anything. i guess i just associate ‘loser’ with down bad but with a level of unreciprocation or uneveness in the dynamic. jenle is very they both want to kiss each other equally they kiss when they want to and are currently kissing ship if that makes sense? they’re a very non yearning ship. like you said they’re both losers for each other so it cancels each other out.
just wanted to clarify i didn’t think it was not a term of endearment or bad or anything haha
oh man I also had a movie related question for you :( I’ll ask anyway hoping it won’t sound repetitive lol so, since Xmas is soon… chenle ships as hallmark/xmas movies/cliches?
i'm sorry but i don't think i watch or know enough christmas movies 😭😭😭😭 but i'll assign each chenle ship a contraption from home alone
- chenmark: treehouse zipline
- renle: door trigger flame thrower
- jenle: the little toy cars at the base of the stairs
- hyuckle: bbgun through the doggy door
- jaemle: all the icy staircases
- chenji: fan that blows feathers everywhere
it’s all just jokes not deep but someone gotta tell chenle straight people don’t have to come out like if he has to say it over and over again when no one else in dream even bothers acknowledging the #real yaoi allegations……miss girl sir
Retrospring uses Markdown for formatting
*italic text*
for italic text
**bold text**
for bold text
[link](https://example.com)
for link