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Anonymous Coward · 6mo
Oh I binged those danstelle ones like you wouldn't believe. Thanks for pointing them out! Also I'm glad you like a avenstelle, there's something about them that gives me feral unhinged energy but comfort at the same time?
And honestly the character relationship building is one of your strongest writing points. I wouldn't mind the focus on kazulumi with like a sprinkle of plot just to advance their relationship. If you ever go back to the kazulumi fics (both the isekai and college au) I'd definitely read them voraciously
Hmm that's true, a conundrum. I wouldn't want to have you lose out on content you're interested in continuing or writing further on. Maybe it is time to create a twt again 😭 just for the DMs
yeah avenstelle just gets me. i think it’s partially the sense that aven is putting on a façade of sorts, like there’s a vulnerability to him that you can kinda see under his confident veneer and i just rlly enjoy the idea that stelle helps him open up… plus yeah he would totally be an enabler for stelle’s energy, no questions there
haha thank you, i’d like to focus on just their relationship as well but i think for this particular fic cuz it’s enemies to lovers unfortunately the plot is q significant otherwise there isn’t a v compelling reason for them to fall in love i feel. i guess that in itself is a major psychological barrier that’s stopping me from working on the fic.
ah yeah the college one. that one is so close to the end though it’s literally just that final chapter… i might sit and work on it someday. the last chapter was mostly smut-centric anyway.
hahaha sure feel free to DM me! i don’t check this account so much nowadays but i do look at my inboxes every so often
Anonymous Coward · 6mo
Alle!! I'm glad you're okay, I was worried when I saw you missing, but I understand completely how you feel. Glad to hear from you again, and glad to see your taste in ships is still thoroughly on point <3 We fr got the same ship braincell. Good luck for the future, wherever it takes you :)
Anonymous Coward · 6mo
Hsr?? I LOVE HSR. Multistelle keeps me up at night, and somehow fell into the hole of Avenstelle even though there's not many and my comfort Danstelle 😭😭 if you write for them, I would binge again. I'm so happy you're still writing in a fandom I like!
Would you ever put up cliff notes of the major plot points or sort of ideas you had for the ending of your kazulumi fics? The yandere isekai was definitely a comfort read for me. No pressure or anything, just curious.
oh! the alle account had danstelle in it, haha (if you haven’t read those, it could be smth new ^^). i haven’t gotten around to writing danstelle under my new pseud yet, though i have plans to haha.
i do write avenstelle now! i have a few fics for them (i guess that makes it easier to find me since like you mentioned there rlly isn’t a lot of avenstelle content…)
haha. funny that you mention the isekai. i was just rereading that one a couple of days back and tbh that was one of the few fics under alle that still sticks with me. i might pick it back up eventually because i did have fun writing it but i kinda got tired because it’s such a long-drawn, many-chapter kind of fic and i eventually wrote myself into an actual super serious plotline (which i never rlly intended) so i got a lil stuck and that’s why the fic stopped at the current chapter LOL. i think i need to stew on how to move it to the next arc because like, i did have vague ideas (plot-wise; the part of the isekai fic that got me excited was the kazulumi relationship development and not the plot, which i guess is kinda obvious) but nothing really concrete and i did worry about boring people if i started going into too much exposition.
okay but that was a very long tangent—hmm i guess i could do that, though i didn’t think a lot of people would have been very interested… i don’t rlly know where i’d post such summaries though because i wouldn’t want to put it on ao3 under alle, you know? plus some of the fics (not only the kzlmi ones but in general) are ideas i might potentially wanna continue so i wouldn’t want the summaries to spread too far, only to people who were genuinely and incredibly interested.
Anonymous Coward · 7mo
Hi! I'm not on twt but was wondering if there was a way to read your new works? I love the way you write and how engaging it is, and only really came across the info that you've moved accts through some sleuthing after re-reading some of your works, wishing you all the best!!
Anonymous Coward · 9mo
hello!! As someone who has been quietly following your work, I wanted to reach out to you after reading your recent update that since Lunar new year just passed, I want to bless and wish you a healthy and peaceful year. While I primarily knew and admired you through your writing, Ive always found the small pieces of your life that you share with us very comforting. You always taking the time to interact with people made me feel that you're also a genuine and very caring person -- more qualities I appreciated about you besides your writing. I hope that me sharing this doesn't make you feel even more of the heavy burden/expectation of what your penname means to you, but rather, I hope to convey that no matter what interests you wish to dabble in, people will always enjoy your work because you pour so much heart into them. Since I discovered you a few years ago, Ive survived one of the hardest phases of my life. Your work has gotten me through some difficult periods of my life -- I fondly remember the nights I would come home excited to read something you had posted in bed before I slept LOL. Since its uncertain if I will come across your writing again, I simply wanted to tell you that someone in another corner of the world is rooting for you always. Please take care, and thank you again. <3
hello! first of all i’m going to say i’m really touched by your message. i never thought that my fics would make such an impact on anyone—it always felt like a hobby, albeit one that i did put effort in… so to hear your heartfelt comment on how it’s tangibly helped you, just reading the silly things i put out—it’s humbling, and i’m glad you derived joy from my writing that way.
i don’t know about being a genuine or caring person. i feel like most of the time even the snippets of information i shared about my life on twitter/x were always very self-absorbed and mostly complaints about my life… haha… idk, i think at one point maybe i did try to talk to a lot of people and be nice but the longer i spent in fandom the meaner i became lol. at a certain point i remember being so exhausted and emotionally burnt out that i couldn’t bring myself to even look at tweets directed at me… or DMs or even ao3 comments, even when people make such a great effort to leave lovely long messages. it’s a bad phase, i don’t think i’m fully out of it yet but hoping things will get better too.
thank you so much for reaching out and for your well-wishes! they are truly appreciated, and i hope that you have a wonderful day! ❤️
Anonymous Coward · 9mo
aaaa I'm so happy to see that youre okay :') <3 I always occasionally come back to check and see if there was ever any update from you because I really enjoyed anything you'd write. I'd gobble it up like a full course meal, but I'm so glad that you're taking care of yourself and I hope I stumble across your work in the future. take care! <3
Anonymous Coward · 9mo
hi, i just wanted to say i have read your post on twitter about how you’re struggling and stuff and wanting to try new things without getting stuck in the same cycle. I hope you will be well in your new journey onwards! 😊
Altho you did say that we can just dm you if we wanna know your new account; I tried to, but i cant as it requires me to have Twitter premium. I was just wondering if there’s another way we can contact you? I’d really like to read on your new account, even if it doesn’t have the same writing style, I would still like to read it 🥹
hello! thank you for the well-wishes, they are appreciated :)
ah yeah i figured out the issue, i was super confused because i rmbr my DMs had no restrictions… apparently X sneakily changed my DM functions to for verified users only. i’ve since changed it back to everyone, so you should be able to message now!
Anonymous Coward · 9mo
Hiya! I'm a fellow public servant in SG as well. Ironically speaking, the "high potential" comment from management always meant additional workload being thrown into our direction, which result more than what we can chew. I was recently told this as well, being into appraisal and stuff... It's suffocating and drains the life out of me.
I hope you are able to eventually sort things out! There is no further advise I can potentially give as we deal with issues differently. You set your own pace alright? A part of me is genuinely sad that you won't be continuing the fic, but you know what; your health precedes everything else.
wa another singapore resident! hahahha. yeah actually that’s the part that sucks. that people who have potential are then punished by being given more and more work because that’s what it’s supposed to be like evidently. makes you wonder why anyone would want to climb that high. my bosses all work like they have no life and it’s awful. appraisal is another one—how do i have time to sit down and consolidate my achievements if i can’t even finish my work within the usual 9to630 lol.
i may continue some of my allechant fics in the future because i think it is possible to transfer them over to another account (i think…) but only after i settle into my new account first! i don’t want to do anything too early and have it lead to expectations.
Anonymous Coward · 9mo
I just wanted to say I hope you're doing well!! I've loved reading a bunch if your first and ngl they inspired me to start writing again after having dropped it years ago. I dont have the courage to post them or anything, but I've been having fun with it nonetheless. Just wanted you to know that you've inspired others to continue their hobbies too :)
I hope you have a good day ♡
hello! i’m happy to hear that you found my work an inspiration, and that it helped you to start writing too. you don’t have to feel ever compelled or obliged to post anywhere—i didn’t post anything i wrote for the first 1-2 years because back then i was an edgy kid who was writing about my mary sue OCs… i only started posting on ffn when a friend introduced me to my first fandom. the most important thing is to enjoy the process, and if other opportunities or pleasures arise out of that, then that’s a great thing.
Anonymous Coward · 9mo
i hope things will be better for you soon. thank you for everything you've shared with us. i normally don't interact with people in the internet, but i was glad for your update. a few weeks ago i was wondering what happened to you. of course i didn't have to know, but the fact that you are alive alleviates my worry (?). i'm grateful you have people around you that support in your hard times. anyway, thanks again for everything, i mean it. i wish you luck in your writing journey and hope everything else will be better soon.
Anonymous Coward · 9mo
Hey, I just wanted to send you best wishes for your new writing and accounts 💖 I have enjoyed your writing in the past, and I’m happy to know you won’t be giving it up. I’m also a writer and, although nowhere near as popular, I’ve also felt the weird “pigeonhole” effect with my own fics. It can be really disheartening when my favorite thing to write ends up getting comments asking for something I’m not feeling inspiration for anymore… so your thread about everything felt quite relatable. I hope things are a little better now than they used to be, and I hope they continue to get better instead of getting worse. Thank you for being allechant, and good luck in the future 💖
thank you very much for your well wishes! this period is better than it was a few months back, and i wanted to come back to writing because it used to be such an enjoyable escape / past time for me and i wanted to reclaim that rather than leave it festering this way.
i think some of the pressure is also innate, like for me i didn’t want to disappoint people or have them forget my account / work, so i also forced myself to write and publish even when i wasn’t quite feeling it and then emotionally that really backfired because it started feeling like work, haha. i hope you find your way out of that feeling of being pigeon-holed—it really is awful because then sometimes when you draft something it’s hard to tell if you don’t like the progress because you genuinely aren’t vibing with it or if it’s partially because you don’t think it suits your “brand” and people wouldn’t care for it.
Anonymous Coward · 9mo
Hi! I was so happy to see you post on twt again, was really scared when you went MIA for almost a year.
I love your fics, and am a little sad you will not continue them but im really glad you are writing again elsewhere that is better for you! (I hope this doesn’t put pressure on you😔).
You are a govt. employee in Singapore, right? A real salute🫡 to you for everything you do, definitely not easy when many govt. agencies are notorious for shoving different roles onto a single person😔.
haha thank you for your well wishes!! dw you aren’t putting pressure on me :) i used to not understand why some people kept posting under anon but there rlly is something liberating about people not knowing who u are because then there’s no expectation. it’s more like hey!! this is a surprisingly good fic and you go in with an open heart. versus like… oh an alle fic it must be this or this or that and there used to be that invisible weight / pressure on me but it’s gone now.
haha yes… a public servant i am :’) thank you for that! tbh sometimes it’s exhausting esp bc the govt is generally perceived to be vvv slow and that most staff are just slacking off or smth but that’s rlly not the case we are working blood sweat and tears here and i’m rlly tired of the workload because even in my agency our division is notorious for the amt of churn (both deliverables and staff lmao). oh well
Anonymous Coward · 9mo
I miss you and your writings sm. I hope you're still doing well. Come back soon.
thank you for your well wishes! i don’t think i will return to the allechant account actually. but i will continue to write elsewhere. i’m feeling quite burdened by the weight of my legacy (pfft what a big word for something that isn’t that consequential tbh) and wanted to start writing under a blank slate.
Anonymous Coward · 10mo
DID YOU SEE THE NEW CUTSCENE WITH THE TWINS?
Anonymous Coward · 10mo
i hope you're still alive and you're just living your best life <3 I've never been that sure what to say to people with depression, my best friend has it too, but if I could I would totally alter your brain hormones so they're not so shitty. best wishes if you're there, I love your work and I love you
thank you! that’s very sweet. i think for me personally it’s just nice to hear someone say, “hey depression sucks, i understand. you don’t always have to put on a front and act like you’re functioning fine”. i think that helps a lot, at least for me. cuz i’m depressed plus anxious and a high performer at work (and you know what they say… the reward for good work is more work so welp vicious cycle). and i’ve rlly been starting to crack. i have a support network in my similarly suffering colleagues + my partner though, and we got a new team lead (context my previous lead sucked and caused approx 90% of my unhappiness) so. things are looking up i guess? i hope. okay anyway. long story short yeah i’m not dead and thank you very much for checking in on me!!