doesn't sound confusing at all. very happy to hear that :) thank you for the support

as for "how i write them so well", if that isn't meant to be rhetorical, when it comes to gunvolt i largely treat the cast like my oc's. a lot of it draws from personal experience. to make an example out of merak, he's a character who is depressed, chronically ill, and neurodivergent, written by someone who is all of those things. i also have been into gunvolt for literal years at this point and have had plenty of time to weave a narrative in my head about certain characters. teseo is a character i have multiple complex headcanons about, but every gunvolt character i write about has been built piece by piece over the years. gibril for instance i always thought would be neat if she had a musical motif, "metal" for her septima, so in iui i had her pick up guitar. it's little things like that, and they stack up

when writing characters that aren't yours i feel a helpful thing to keep in mind is to rationalize the "why" behind their behavior. especially if it's in regards to something negative. with merak, i don't try to ignore the fact that he has low empathy and sometimes has a callous disregard for others' feelings; i instead rationalize it as it being a symptom of autism. it makes them seem a bit more human that way

i could talk for hours about this if you let me honestly