a lot of things happened lately. my mental health is already bad and it's unfortunately getting worse.
i'm both happy and stressed about this account. i'm happy i met some nice people like mila, dani, noot and my anons, but i get paranoid and attached to things and people easily.
i'm grateful to everyone that has read my aus, i had a good time despite everything.
i enjoy writing a lot and i thought i could handle having a public account but i was wrong, i know i don't have a lot of followers so it probably sounds ridiculous but when your mental health is this bad everything feels too big to handle.
i think i will eventually open another public account later on but i probably won't post socmed fics. i do want to try and keep writing for ao3, not right now tho because i want to focus on getting better and on university!
i'm sorry for leaving my last au unfinished but i couldn't bring myself to work on it and if i forced myself nothing good and enjoyable would have come out of it.
as for the "so soon" i realized only recently how little time passed since i opened my account and it's because i can't keep track of time, i have a problem with time so for example tree days can feel like a whole week to me.

i feel like i talked too much and said too little but i hope you got your answer!!

everyone if you read this please take care of yourself, the past is in the past, focus on the present and on the people that love you, ask for help if you need to and check on your friends too! don't be embarrassed about feeling bad and if you did something wrong you can work on yourself and be a better person.